So, remmeber when I had foresight, and didn't get my flu shot the day before my calculus midterm? Yeah, neither do I. In retrospect it probably wasn't the best idea to get my flu shot yesterday, but I can comfort myself with the knowledge that I could have possiby prevented my death by preventing my contraction of influenza. And that is more important than a calculus midterm, am I right?

In other news, I'm Moorehead bound soon again, next friday at the latest, and I get to see Maren's play. Woot I'm looking forward to it. I am also looking forward to making corn bake and squash for supper tomorrow. Yey for fall foods that I can eat! (well maybe I shouldn't be eating a ton of the corn bake, but I just don't even care anymore.) I'm going to make this short, like me, and be done writing right now!

Intrapersonal communication, I think this is an important thing to have. I feel like I'm lacking this, this week. Could be par of the reason I've been in such a wierd mood? Who knows. It's probably just me coming off of a weekend with people around the whole weekend and people I wanted to be around the whole weekend at that, and then coming back to my real world this week.

I've been having my usual exciting weekend, doing homework, and going out for a tense evening last night. Supper was enjoyable, I sat by Steve, and he told Jenny and I that the MCAT was an easy test, for which he almost was kicked outside, but we faorgave him. Then we went to the play 'Shadowlands' which was really good, it was emotional, as could be expected since it was about C.S. Lewis and his wife, and we knew how that was going to end. But it was really cool, because a lot of the dialoge betwee characters and the things he said in his speeches were obviously taken from his wirtings. And they incorporated The Magician's nephew into it as well, because Digory picked a magic apple and brought it back to his sick mother to heal her. But the walk there and back was a little bit awkward, and failry tense. Oh well, it was a good evening overall.

Anywho, there is much more calculus and O Chem to be done, so off I go. Oh, and woot for daylight savings time!

So you know those days when you feel like there's a conspiracy against your sanity, if only for the day? I'm having one of those. I woke up this morning and my muscles were not happy, by the time I got out of the shower they were spastic enough that I was like, I can't go to class like this. So I took a motrin and some potassium and magnesium to relax them. that it did indeed. I slept through Calc because I was so dang relaxed. After history of medicine I was going to go to my O Chem professor's office hours told talk about my test, and study habits. It had been more than 15 mins since office hours started and she still hadn't show up, so I left in order to be able to eat something before 4:30 today. I swear she hears I'm coming and deliberatly skips or has a family emergency. Yes I'm failry cynical right now. But seriously, I've gone to office hours 4 times and both times I actually needed to talk to her she hasn't shown up. Then as I was on my way back to my apartment I tried calling my mom because I am going to make squash tonight and need to know how, but our phone was busy. I haven't gottena busy signal in a really long time.

Sorry, that's my whining for the day. I might have something more positive to say after the flu shot clinic tonight. I'm off!

Ahahahahaha. Oh, I love Wednesdays....oh wait, that's not true. So in calc we of course wnet through 2 sections again, and I was like, well I can do some serious calc this weekend, in my spare time (?) because we haven't had a leprosy lecture in History of Medicine yet, so I'll have a lot less to read. Hahaha. Get to History of Medicine, and oh, nope we're skipping right to the plague, but we didn't quite get to the black death. Oh, but don't worry, Suprise! Our next essay (draft due next wed) is on a comparison of Leprosy to the black death, neither of which we've lectured on. I swear sometimes that college is a conspiracy. But don't worry, I just won't sleep for the next 2 weeks, it's not like I'm stressed and starting to have problems with my stomach already or anything.

Sorry, this is very manic, and very sarcastic. I'm sure it will all be fine, I'm jsut in meniachal laughter mode for the time being. Well, I'm off to OChem office hours before our test this afternoon.

Oh wow, I am looking at guidelines for carryon luggage so I don't have problems on friday, and they are hilarious. Actual things on the list of approval and dissaproval. Gel filled bras, yes, toy transformer robots, yes (but does that mean you can't bring a real transformer robot?). Things you can't have, sabers, meat cleavers, explosives, throwing stars, brass knuckles, cattle prods, pool cues, spear guns, lacrosse sticks, or swords. Well there goes my weekend. You can't have mace either, you can put it in your checked bag, but only if it meets certain specifications. I'm going to have to remember that, because I'm not waiting for the light rail at 7am without mace.

In other news, O Chem may kill me. We went through 26 pages of material yesterday. Who does that the day before a test? I did Ochem all night last night, and fell asleep on it earlier today. And i'm still not done covering new material, let alone reviewing the old stuff. Could be fun?

There's hope in sight, after my day of Hell tomorrow, it's all about homework, but less pressure, and while I'm at camp I think I'm going to figure my life out, ie am I going to add a physiology major, and what the crap am I taking next semester.

I didn't fall asleep until probably almost 3 last night, and I laid down around 1ish. What is the deal, I mean I dozed a bit while i was laying there, but not actual sleep. This morning though, I was sleeping really hard, i was really confused by my alarms, and hadrly remember turning off the first two. There's definitly a reason I have an alarm i have to get out of bed to turn off.

I had a wierd camp dream last night, it was the last week, and we were going to have meetings with all of our kids, and alternately with each other as a staff. Kind of an end of summer check back. It's hard to describe, but it was a lot stranger than it sounds. And part of this dream was Laurie and I driving on highway 2, and then Jake drove by and the police man started chasing him, and the highway turned into a congested four leaf clover style mess of on and off ramps.

Well, time for my first History of Medicine test. I'm a little nervous, but not really. My TA said we should be fine. I hope it goes well though, it's only 15% of my grade, but it would be nice to have that cushion there.

Why does it take me at least an hour to fall asleep every night? This is a fairly new developement I think. It only takes me 3-5 mins to fall asleep for a nap, and at camp I'd be out before flashlight time was over. I wonder if it has to do with the level of physical activity I get everyday, or maybe the level of activity my brain is at when I lay down? I don't know.

Last night I watched Dogma for the first time. It was close to a party, Alex, Jenny, Pat, Mike, and Keith watched, and we realized that our "living room" area is not suited for more than 4 people that want to watch a movie. I've noticed that Jenny and I are really good at making friends with out CA's. Mike is our CA here, and last year we'd hang out with E too. Must be the bionerdyness in us?

Ugh, I don't want to do anymore homework today. However, this a homework weekend, and I have to if I want to have any time to not do homework this coming weekend. I can't believe it's almost here, I've been waiting for this for a good month now. I can't wait to be in Fargo, not that i don't love flying, it's just not as fun when you have to wake up at 6 to do so, for a 9 o'clock flight I might add. Oh public transit. Not gonna lie, I'm a little scared, the high for friday is 28 in Menahga. Ummmmm, Brrr! And I'm not sure if the staff building is weather proofed or not, but if not that is going to be one chilly night.

Anyway, time to get cracking on O Chem and History of Medicine, and Calc, woot for mountains of homework!

Jenny and I were discussing earlier this month how we kind of live in our own little College of Biological Sciences Honors world when we're here. We tend to forget that not everyone devotes 8-12 years of their life ot higher education, and not everyone has a course load that requires doing homework whenever possible every semester of their college career. It became glaringly obvious that we're really in our own world, when I found out last night that North Korea has been conductiong possible nuclear weapons tests. I don't know when the first one happened even, i just know it did recently. But it's definitly been going on long enough that i should have heard about it by now. So last night I looked at the international news on the Star Tribune site, and remembered why it is that I don't keep on top of the news. It was so depressing, nuclear testing in North Korea, fighting and death in Darfur, the war in Iraq, child labor laws forcing children to lose their only source of income, so sad.

So, I don't really know whether I think I should stay on top of the news or not now. I really should know what's going on, but what can I really do about it? With the whole North Korea thing I decided to not worry about it unless something does come of it, then I can worry. Because as I figure, that one I really can't do anything about, it's much bigger than me, and why worry and lose sleep over it when I could be working on school and things instead? But what about things like Child Labor laws, and the problems in Darfur can I realistically do anything about those? I guess we'll see. I'm starting to understand Anne's desire to save the world, and am becoming jealous that she has the physical capabilities to do so. I don't think I would be comfortable living in a country with subpar health care, even if it would help save the world, becasue if I got sick, well I'd no longer be able to save the world.

Man, this is a heavy post, but I don't think it's going to get much lighter. On a bittersweet note, my O Chem professor is having a family emergency, I'm wondering if someone in her family died, and so we're not having class today. And not having class is a good thing, but I really do feel bad for her.

I did not sleep well last night, during Health Advocate class I got a wicked headache, and so I came home, took some tylenol and sudafed, and layed down for 45 mins. It didn't really help, so I called my mom and she told me to take more sudafed and some motrin, so I did that, and then it did finally go away, but I was so not tired until 1, because sudafed is a stimulant, and I took two doeses, one close to 8. And then I kept waking up, I woke up at like 3, and 5, and 5:30, I've never had trouble sleeping before this year, with the exception of prednisone induced insomnia.

Anyway, this is really long, and heavy I'm going to be done for now.

I just wanted to take a moment to be amused by the juxtaposition of the chalking around campus today. There are chalkings from The Joy prjoect, an eating disorder awareness deal, and the Ramadan fast-a-thon.

It's Monday. I'm okay with that today though, but this is going to be a long Monday. I am going to both my History of Medicine Ta's office hours, and my O Chem professors office hours, so I basically have class from 9:05 to 2:15 straight. I may hvae time for lunch, or a power nap, depending on which seems more necessary at the time.

This weekend was a good weekend. Brawner came to visit, and we have a good time. Friday we decided to go with Alex and Anna(Who was also visiting for the weekend) to Cold stone downtown. Waiting for the bus the 115 showed up (we were waiting for the 3, 16, or 50) but it said Hennepin on it, and I was like Coldstone is on Hennepin, we should get on that one, and we did eventually end up on Hennepin, but not in downtown, but more so in uptown. this was fine, we found the cold stone there too, the only problem was we didn't know which was downtown was. I was kind of the leader now, because I had decided the 115 was a great idea, so I called Jenny to see if she could help me figure out which way downtown was, and she started giving me all kinds of cardinal directions, and I told that didn't help at all, because I had no barrings at the moment, so after much ado we figured out that downtown was to the right. So we got on another bus and headed back.

The next day we did a little tour of campus, and then went to the Wartburt vs Augsburg game. It was wierd, I haven't been to a football game since highschool, and it was like a flashback to high school. Then we went too the mall, spent a lot of time, and a good amount of money. On the lightrail on the way back there was this little boy who had three gum balls in his mouth, he couldn't even talk without taking them out of his mouth first. It made me miss camp, but most of all kids.

I just got a health Advocate visit for condoms, 8:30am, that's an odd time. And calculus....

Random Amusing Anecdotes

I was walking back from my calc review, and came upon a college aged guy, and probably a 2nd grade boy walking and it looked like the little boy was getting a tour of campus. As I walked by the older guy said "And this is the Northrop Mall." the boy looked up at him, and retorted "How do you know?!"

I sat down in OChem lecture, and plopped my notebook onto my little desk. My pen somehow managed to go flying, and hit the guy four chairs to my left in the knee. The pen hasn't been seen since. If you have any information about it's where abouts....

Written on the board in my calc discussion yesterday "Office hours have been canceled due to the exam, and a paper I haven't finished." I love my TA.

Jenny was doing her O Chem and working with a model of a molecule, trying to pull of a methyl group and ripping the whole thing apart she exclaims, " This is a stupid molecule, it is not happy. if I were this molecule I would want to be something else!" I looked at the poor mangled molecule and replied "Jenny, do you realize that, that molecules self esteem just dropped about ten points?"

Last night Alex and I were ordering food from Simon Delivers, and we found Ezekiel 4:9 bread. We were very curious what Ezekiel 4:9 could have to do with cinnamon bread and hamburger buns, so we looked it up. it says, " Now take some wheat, barley, beans, peas, millet, and spelt. Mix them all together and make bread. that is what you will eat the 390 days you are...." turn the page... "lying on your left side." What?! Maybe they're hamburger buns your supposed to eat while lying on your left side?

And I'm off for Wednesday. I don't really like wednesdays.

So, last night I had a dream that I was in my hall, and there was a tornadoe coming, and I was on the phone with Maren, but Chris was on the other line, and then when I was about to get into the elevator to go down to the ground floor to be safe from the tornadoe my phone went dead, so I couldn't talk to either of them.
Generally when I have tornadoe dreams it means stuff is already or is going to change in my life. I had a lot of tornadoe dreams before school last year. Hopefully these are going to be good changes though, because I wasn't afraid during my dream. Oh life and dreams.

I went on a walk along the trail by the river today, and it was amazing, unfortunately my camera batteries went dead very early on, but I managed, and Jenny gave me new batteries, so I will have to go down again this week and get a shot of the amazing bank past the second bridge, it's so many colors. I love autum in the city!