I'm Gonna Be A Camp Counselor!!

Alright, so who knows why it is that I dislike this town so much? Any guesses? Because I'm freaking Laurie that's why! Today I went to get my hair cut and a trial style for prom (mistake #1). I did not annouce as I walked in the door that my name is in fact AMANDA (mistake #2). So for anyone who's keeping score, Laurie went to Hair Fx and got a hair cut and prom trial today, that worst part is I'm pretty sure Nan gave me her hair cut. Whimper, Whimper. Not that it's a bad hair cut, it's cute, it is a bit shorter than I had hoped though, but hair grows I guess. I'm just so tired of being a twin, I want to be myself, invisible is fine by me, as long as I'm not Laurie.

*Disclaimer since I know you read this Laurie you know that I have nothing against you, I think you're a wonderful person but you know all the crap I've put up with here because you are older and we happen too look very similar.*

So there, I am through doing business in Crookston. Keep Business in Crookston Keep Crookston in Business my ass. I'm leaving, to cost cutters I go, I don't care anymore.

Sorry for the rant yet again, some day soon I'm going to post happily again, don't worry spring is coming, and that means flowers and thunderstorms are too. Love to all.

Ah, tonight I was driving home, and saw a sign in the hardware store window that said 'Open Every Day". Oh rural Minnesota, there is so much you need to catch up on. I can't live here this summer though. I am going to forever be a city dweller. It feels so nice to be out of all the small towishness of my former world. I went to the hospital today to have blood drawn before my appointment later this week, and they only took three small vials! Only three! I've been up to eight before. That was a rough night, I think I went home and slept for about 5 hours after that. But even the hospital had an air of smalltownyness. In the 20 mins I was there I saw about five people I knew. I freaked out a little after that and left Alex a bit of a hysterical message. It's just so wierd to be back here, let me tell you what, the years go on a we're still fighting, and we're still fighting it.

Tonight Albert and I watched American Beauty. It's a fairly messed up movie, but I understand why it got such good reviews. One of the things that was deemed beautiful was a plastic bag swirling around in before-storm gusts of wind. The character said he watched it for 15 mins. This made me really happy, because that is totally something I would do. I'm pretty sure on our trip to Hawaii in 11th grade I sat and just watched the ocean roll in and out for a good 3-6 hours composite. This doesn't include time spent at the beach with the family etc. This is simply time I spent watching the ocean. I really miss the ocean. I also miss thunderstorms. I could watch thunderstorms for hours and not get bored. Even if there is no thunder or lightning at the time, you can still watch the rain pouring down, or the trees blowing in the wind. It's awesome.

It's 2 degrees F here, it's 16 degrees F in the cities, with a high of 32 tomorrow. Jealous. 'I wish I could go back to college, I'd sit in the quad and think oh, my God I am totally gonna go far. What would I give to go back and live in a dorm with a meal plan again?' Ok, minus the meal plan. UDS food sucks majorly, though it has only given me food poisoning once. But we did successfully grow E. coli off of the spinach in Bio lab. Time for bed though. I have to get some sort of homework done tomorrow. I get to go buy food tomorrow! Hoorah for Sam's Club, sorry Walmart haters, I can't afford to have morals right now, I go to college.

*Music Note* It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood, a beautiful day in the neighborhood. *End Music Note* It's 39 degrees out today, and it's sunny; I only have three classes until spring break. ThenI get to go home to really cold again. Ah well, high of 50 tomorrow, and sun.

So I just took my second calc midterm today. I feel like it went pretty well. I finished and everything, even with two related rates problems! I feel bad for my TA though, last weekend she was ice skating, and fell breaking her arm. So she asked the doctor if she could have a cool hot pink water proof cast. They said no, you can have surgery over spring break. I feel her pain, I was almost casted over winter break becasue of my ankle.

Today I am going to be productive, I am going to do my Bio lab, hopefully my chem lab, laundry and dishes. Oh my. But first I have to shower. Some one woke up a little late for her midterm today, but don't worry, she was still on time. Audios Amigos, enjoy the coming of spring, it's pretty much amazing.

And Ps. Jenny andI got a room in Yudof hall next year, so we get a kitchen! A kicthen, how awesome is that?!

UUuuuuurrrgh. So I've decided I'm quitting Biology and switching to anything else. I get my worst grades in Bio. I don't get it. I got my last test score today, and I did below the mean. What the crap? I studied forever for that test. I serisouly probably studied for 15 hours if not 20. Bah! But don't worry, I have a lovely 3 hour Bio lab tonight, oral report included. And oh tomorrowI get to go to lecture, turn in my bio paper, and get my test back, good thing 11.5% of my final grade now sucks. My GPA cannot handle too many more B's before getting into Med school is going to get really though. I feel so freaking stupid here. I can't get an A in anything but Comp. That's it, I'm switching to English. I am now an english major.

This has just been a bad couple of weeks. The past two were crazy with midterms and bio lab and freshman seminar presentation etc, and now they're crazy trying to catch up and keep my grades up. Then this weekend was a doozy. Thursday Jenny hit her head, and I had to take her into the emergency room, she got a concussion. Friday there was a mini-fire in Middlebrook, nothing actually started on fire, but we all had to leave for a while. Then Al and I went to Olive Garden, and on the way home jumped a median. Then Saturday we went to half priced books with Jenny and Pat, and on the way home got in a car accident.

Ok I ran out of rant steam, and now need to do some chemistry.