So today is Friday, hurrah for fridays. I have come to realize that I have been doing too much math as of late. I hate math, it's ruining my life, and my brain. Yesterday I did Discrete for two hours, the same problem may I add. And when I was done I had the worst math moment I've ever had, it was like Betso's 10/6 moment only worse. I was trying to think of black oil paint, and all that would come through was 8/10 and I was trying to write it, and all that would come out was 8/10 and then I'm like and that reduces to be 4/5. Augh, I'm going insane. And Mr. Eff has been contributing quite a bit as of late. Yearbook is crazy, he wants the academics pages along with a bunch of others done by tuesday, puhuh. No way is that possible, I'd love for them to be done, but we still have four weeks of school, I think, left and then we have at least two after that of production work, so I don't know why he's rushing it, because we're going to have lower quality work then. *shrug*

So yesterday I went to GF and bought pants, because I ripped two of mine this past week, and I was down to 3 and that just doesn't work when you wash clothes once a week. So now I have 5 again, and I had an amazingly easy time picking them out, it only took me a few minutes and I didn't even have to go back and pick out a new pair four times like I usually do. I just tried on three and two of the three were really comfortable, so that's what I bought, crazy huh?

Tonight Al and I are going to go to The Green Mill for supper, and I would like to go to the NDBC dance show too, but I don't know if Al want's to go, I'll have to ask him. I had a realization this week, but I can't seem to remember it at the moment, actually I had quite a few realizations this week, but none are coming to mind. Hmm. Well, last night I was reading a story my mom wrote about when she and a bunch of people from our church renovated one of her friends' houses who has had major medical problems, and is on a low income. And I realized that even though my mom isn't very active in the church any more, it doesn't really matter, becausxe it was reaslly cool what they did, and I'm sure God was very pleased with them, because that family would have never gottne something like that on their own. They spend 6 weeks renovating, and fixed most of her house up for her. I was actually jealous because I would love to be able to say I'm done something that generous. I really like being gerneous, it feels good, sadly I have no job, so I generally have to give of my time, which is probably a contributing factor to having no job. Teehee. I wonder if this summer I could work with Habitat for Humanity or something, because I would like to do somehting volunteer besides Vacation Bible school. I'm pretty sure the nurses' aid job isn't going to happen, when I look at all the time I'd need off, I don't think they'd hire me, and they haven't called back yet either, and I dropped off my application over a month ago.

This is turning into a long post. But I really like this keyboard, and I don't want to do my pre-calc. Damn math, I hate you math! But I supposed I should, because I have time, thought I do have three hours to work coming up, but no matter, I'm off. Love to the kids *wink wink*

Ps. I remembered one of my realizations, I think when I'm pregnant I might be able to cry. Since hormones go crazy then, it's much more plausible, generally pregnant women cry alot, so maybe I'd be normal when I'm pregnant, I'll have to get cracking on that a sap.

So today I gave my child abuse presentation, and that made me realize that I'm pretty much done with my "core" high school classes. I have things like my personal book, and hemmingway in english, and who knows hwat in social, and for my required classes that all. So now I could pretty much skip the rest of school, and still graduate. I'm not going to , but I could. This thought is really exhilerating, and slightly terrifying. I'm really excited to be out of here, but I will miss a few things aobut high school. Ok, I'll miss my friends, but that's quite a few good reasons I'd say.

I alos painted a bajillion little's kid's faces today, for a head start saftey festival or something of the sort. I love face painting, it's way fun. you get the best requests, like spider man, or and eagle, or blue people. I'd say the best one I've had was spider man in an egg. I'd say face painting is like extreme painting, because you're working on a moving canvas. It's crazy how hard some of the little kids are.

Tomorrow is the entertaining senior citizens day thing at school. since the play wasn't ready in time, we're doing certain scenes from the play, and I get to do Dreamweaver, woohoo wait, booohooo. I don't like it, but at least the stage will be bare this time, and it will be easier. It'll be fun to reunite with the fairies though, and wear my face paint to school one last time. Yey for fairies. oh snap, I have to do my hair, and call Alex D for tights.

And prom is in a little over a week as well. Oh man, I need to practice my hair style. Makybe a project for tomorrow. I really need to practice with eyeliner, or maybe have Betso do it. Crap and we need to get Alex a hat. But my major stressor is over. I will graduate from high school this year. Yey. I also need to clean becaus ei get to have people over following Blast to Bede, I'm not used to being a hostess, but I kind of like it. So yey.

I'll leave you with a parting phantom of the opera chunk. It is out on video May 3rd!

Say you'll share with me one love one lifetime
leave me save me form my solitude
say you'll wait with me each year beside me
Anywhere you go let me go to
Christine that's all I ask of...... AAAAAUUUGH!
CRASH!

*End scene*

I have come to realize today that I believe we had I lived somewhere else growing up, I would be much less cynical. Most things I say, especially about this town are morbid, cynical or sarcastic, just because I'm so sick of living here. The hypocracy is starting to drive me crazy. I know there are good things about living here, there are some really good people, I love my friends to death, but they're not enough to hold me here, it's that unreasonable. Today especially I've been faced with all this stuff. The whole town is so political, you can't do anything out of the norm and still be an upstanding memeber of society. National Honor's Society was tonight, and there were people that I was inducted with that ruined it for me. I know they've smoked away all their brain cells, and it makes me feel like crap to be "honored" with them. NHS is a big joke in this town. I'm glad I got my cords, because if some of the people that had been inducted had them and I didn't I probably would have killed myself (figuratively of course).

And then there are the community scholarships. I tried for as many as I could, but the problem is, I'm not of the right family to win scholarships. I just found out the one scholarship I thought I had the best chance at because it's awarded in Math and Science this year is judeged by a woman who left our church angrily while my dad was president, so I'm basically screwed. This is the same lady who asked Wonder Woman who her parents were when she was dropping off her application for this scholarship, she told her and got a Minnesota dissaproving "Oh." We also had one where we wrote and essay on school spirit, and I wrote a load of crap, though not as good of a load of crap as Mahinda, I have to hand it to her, that's one of the best I've seen. Finally we come to the people who have the right last names but have drunk or smoked away the English portion of their brains, so their parents write their essays for them, and they win. Grr. Honesty doesn't pay, it's actually a really good way to get screwed over. Damn values.

Wonder Woman actually told me that she's been a lot less cynical since she started going to college, because every day she remembers that she's glad she's at college and in California, and she's genuinly happy there. I can't remember a time here waking up and being glad that I live here. Granted it's better than Chechnia or something like that, but I know there are so many much better places out there, that it's torture to be held back here. And really I think growing up here has stunted a lot of people's potentials, the school system is not what it should be, and the morals are even worse. And I'm done ranting, I hope you guys didn't read all this, I'm just venting my frusterations so I can sleep better tongiht, if you did read this all you deserve a hug, because I'm sure it wasn't fun. Love to all.

I was just thinking about what I thought qualifies something to be art, and I figured out my "ism". I am a very academic artist, and an ism is something you do to break the rules, and since we are now in post-modernism it's pase to not break any rules, or to make art solely for the technical or asthetic value. It's supposed to be ugly, and have some deep hidden meaning. Well most of my paintings have a meaning, but my photographs are purely for photography's sake a lot of the time, and that's why my art is not as well recieved as if I were to put naked people, or blood in my pictures. It felt really good to figure that out.

But I also figured out what I think qualifies something to be considered art. On Mona Lisa Smile some one says that for a piece to be considered art someone, the right people, have to say it's art, but I don't hink that's true. I think anything that has some sort of technical artist merit, such sa contrast, balance, harmony, or technique should be considered art. A completely original idea, or a piece no matter how ugly that has a hidden meaning should also be considered art. That's what I think makes art art. I was thinking about this tonight because I went to the Minnesota State High School League art contest today, and I submitted the photograph Saturaed Sound, and it did not fare well. I was little bit bitter about it, so I was thinking, and now I feel a lot better. So, now I am off to write an essay on the importance of School Spirit, lol like I have any, but you know what? It's worth the BS to get a scholarship, so I'm out!

Ok, I haven't posted ina really long time, because I've been insanely busy with the play, and so now I'm back after performance two of three. The past two have actually gone really well. I'm quite pleased. For how poorly I thought they would go, yey. Last night was probably the cleanest performance, but tonight had more engery and our crowd rocked. Any one who came tonight, you were an awesome crowd, props to you for getting some of the humor. And Joey is insane, he made up a line on stage, and it worked, this is Shakespeare, how does he do that? Wow.
So last night we had the cast party at Alex D's house,and it was lots of fun, and there was sooo much food, we aren't getting any more food for the next party, and we used it all for tonight too. But holy couples, we had a sort of instantaneous coupling. Betsy andPeter were there, and Alex and I, and then Jean and Brett, and Jake and Tori maybe? And Wohl and Jakie R as of tonight, and possibly Joey and Zandi. That's four for sure and possibly six. Craziness, almost half of the cast has coupled. We watched part of The Company at Alex's it was awesome. And at Betso's we played Freak Tag (once tagged you have to be a freka until someone tags you that's not it or a freak. And we also went for a walk with the intent of going to the cememtary, but apparently there's a rule that you can't go into the cemetary past a certain hour, so we journied to the cemetary and back.
Tomorrow is the last performance, and I'm sad, because I like this play a lot, I love being a fairy, and after today my dancer friends go back to dance, and we have less in common again. Sigh. I miss my dancer friends during competitions and ballets and such. Any who, I'm off to bed, church and SS tomorrow. Love to all, you can ceratinly attend tomorrow, (I just spelled tomorrow as two words, wow) hopefully it will be good, I'm sure I'll have picture for later. 7:30 CHS auditorium, A Midsummer Night's Dream, be there or be somewhere else!

Alright, first play practice after the break was yesterday, and it went terribly. I really don't want people to come, jsut because I don't want to be embarrassed like that. I forgot parts of Dreamweaver, and we don't know our cues for the simple dance, and I keep forgetting my stupid "Where shall we go?" line. I only have about 6 lines, you'd think I could remember them. And of course my monologue was too quiet. Grr, Beth and Joyce know I'm that quiet, I was trying really hard to be loud enough, but I don't know if it's ever happened. Even in One Act I was still really quiet. It wouldn't be so bad, except they yell at you for it during the three act. Damn stress, makes people not nice people. though I have to admit I've been rather snippy since I got back too. I'm sorry, I'll be better as soon as I sleep a little bit. Practice went until 10:30 last night, and then I went home and did homework until 2. Ah back to my 5hrs of sleep a night, hurrah.
And prom is coming up soon too. We need to Leviathan a tux, haven't started on that yet. Eek. And next week I'm in the glass case, so this weekend I need to make prints, and write an artists statement, finish my painting, get fit for my prom dress, hopefully get started on Leviathan's tux, plan a sunday school lesson, pick a date for my graduation reception, and get started on invitations, church, possibly Breathe, and I'd like to go to EGF's play, but I'm not sure if i'll be able to, because play practice is at 7 tonight, and we're doing a full run on saturday at 2, and I don't know if we'll be done in time for the play. Though that might be our best bet. I also need to get my print made for the Northwest Art exhibit competition and get a frame for it. I'm glad some of my homework involves watching a movie this weekend, that's really nice for me. Thought I'm afraid I'm going to fall asleep. I'll have to set an alarm or somehting so I'm not late for play practice. That almost happened yesterday, but I came just barely on time. Blegh and I have to go 40 mins early for Dreamweaver practice. I'm really hoping that's in the auditorium, and not at the studio, I'm pretty sure it is though. Ok, off for class. Have a lovely day.

So yesterday I had the flights from Hell. It started off having to get up at 4:30 to catch my shuttle to LAX when my plane left at 8:40. So I looked around the I *heart* LA store, but the only thing I found for under a dollar were See's suckers, so I bought myself one of those, and my sunday school kids are going to get lame pens that say CLU on them. Then as I was waiting for my flight, I found out there was going to be a high school chior flying with us. Blegh, not fun. As I got to my seat, I found out I was right in the midst of them. It was terrible, an almost 4-hour flight, and these kids did not shut up, or stop taking picutres or anything. I was really really tense when I got off the flight. But not to worry I had a 3-hour layover in Minneapolis, and nothing to do, so I went to the book store, and bought The Bell Jar and Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West. And so I went to my gate all the way the heck out in teh B terminal which has only a bathroom, not even a vernding machine, and read for an hour and a half or so, and I finished Brave New World, and got 2/3 of the way throught The Bell Jar before I got home. and sadly the end of Brave New World confused me yesterday, I couldn't figure out what had happened, and I finally realized in the shower this morning.
Today at school I learned that we really didn't do anything while we were gone, so I don't have much as far as makeup work, except for paiting that is due on April 4th. Which is this past Monday. So I'm going to be painting like a madwoman this weekend. Crap. there is Breathe this weekend, but I really want to go to EGF's play. Hmmmm. I'll have to talk with Erik and see what we can do about that. We have a performance in one week. One week from today we will be perfomring at this time. Augh! Frightening. And why the crap are we doing 4 performances? Cruel and unusual punishment anyone?

So last night Wonder Woman and I went with her friend Grant and his girlfriend, Sarah, to Santa Monica, and we went to the pier. It's like an eternal carnival. So we went to a little mexican restaurant at the end of the Pier, and then we went on the ferris Wheel, and we played a few of the carnival games. I almost won a stuffed Crush (from Finding Nemo) but Grant was a better squirter than me. After that Wonder Woman and I had Michaelangelo draw our portrait, I'll have to post it sometime, and then we crammed all four of us into a photo booth, and we even did a Zoolander Magnum pose. It was a good time. We even got to play in the ocean before we left, and we got to get hit on by creepy drunk hispanic men.


Wonder Woman and I in the ocean in front of the Pier


Wonder Woman and I on the Ferris Wheel.

Today was equally enjoyable. We woke up late, because brunchfest doesn't start until 10:30, so after lunch we asked Wonder Woman's friend Chase to take us to the beach, and her other friend Lauren came with us. It was a fun time too. I actually went swimming in the ocean, and it was extremely cold. but then we went and "warmed up" on the sand. But it was so windy the warming part didn't really happen. So we decided to go for a walk before we left, and on the way back we found this little turtle. He was unbelievably cute. I wanted to take him home, but we let him go again, because he belongs at the beach.

But I am going to work on my discrete, because Mr. Eff gave me three sections and a review for missing 5 days. Now, I'm supposed to do two days per section. That's unfair. but anywho, Have a lovely day.

Hello All. I'm in a genreally giddy mood. I'm currently sitting in Wonder Woman's dorm room with her roommates, watching celebrity jeopardy. I'm thoroughyl enjoying California, as I knew I would. When we touched down, there were wild flowers growing in the median between the runways. It made me really happy. I haven't seen flowers gorwing of their own accord for a really long time, probbly 6 months. This happiness was due to Minnesota, which is wierd, but as I was leaving yesterday morning I heard a morning dove. That made me really happy, because morning doves mean summer is either here or coming.

So I few through Minneapolis, and when I got off my plane I was really tired, but then there was a Starbucks about 20 yards from my gate, so we survived quite nicely. then I had a 2 hr layover, so I walked around on the moving walkways for about and hour and then boarded m plane, and flew here. I even found my bag and shuttle all by myself. Though i relaized that if I ever want to survive in the wild I'm going to need to be a lot more agressive. I was waiting for my bag to come at the baggage carousel, and I saw it come down the ramp, but there were a lot of people in the way, so I watched it go around probably twice before there was sufficient space for me to grab it. Last nigth we also went to what is called the Need which is like te campus coffee house I believe, and we painted pottery and listened to Wonder Woman's friedns sing. It was a good time, then we came back and I slept for about 12 hours, because I had been up for 21. Butnow we're off to take pictures of stuff, and there are bird of paradise flowers, and calla lilies growing wild here. We might even go swinging, and tonight i get to see the ocean. We may no play in it, but I get to see it for sure. Yey. Have a lovely day all,a d I'll see you next thursday at the soonest!