So Tonight I went over to Lola's house, and got to see mst of my away at college friends again. It was rather enjoyable. we started talking though about colleges and classes and such, and I asked if I'd have to take a lot of math for a Biology degreee, and they all looked at me and are like um yeah! I have obvisouly been severely missinformed on this subject. My mom told me I wouldn't have to take much for math as a biology major. Now I should have seen this coming, because I always have to make things difficult for my self (just take a look at what I'm doing to myself in painting, and you'll agree) and seeing how maht is my worst subject, obviously I'd pick a major that involved a lot of it. damn you stupid girl, why do you have to be a academic masochist? *whimper* I've also been wondering lately if medicine is what I really want to go into, or did I just decided to go inot it so I'll be "sucessful"? It would really suck if I got like my 8 years of school done, and decide no, I want to be a park ranger or something instead. It kind of feels like from now on I'm going to be exhausted until I retire. And that's a whole lot of years fo exhaustion. But really, if I decide to be a doctor, and actually find someone to get married too. I'm going to want a family, and of course I'll want my kids to have fabolous opportunities, and I'll want to have hobbies of my own etc etc. I'll basically never get to sleep. Maybe my drug dealership will come in hadny, all the speed I can handle right?
Ok, and I'm done freaking out. I think this is the first time I'm published one of my where is my life going freakouts. hope you enjoyed my moments of insanity. I usually put them in my paper journal, so if Mr. D ever actually read it, he'd probably give me the are you alright talk as well. But anyway, today was the first snowfall of the year, as you probably already read. I went out and made a snowman, and he was pathetic. He's about 2 feet high, because that's all the snow I could make stick in a snowman shape. I cleared a good portion of the front lawn in the process as well. And I let my brother take me for a ride on his new snowmobile, though now I smell like snowmobile yuck. But I had totally forgotten how to drive on ice. I got to the stop sign by the higway, and almost slid right across. I was terrified, and really glad I had ABS. Then on the way home, my windows were way foggy, and just as they were beginning to clear I drive into like this wall of fog or snow or somehting. And I had my brights on, os I couldn't see a thing. And it jsut kept getting thicker the farther I went. Os I going about 45-50 trying to find my corner, which is hard to find on clear night, and did actually find it first try, but it was really scarry. Because at one point I could see nothing but the moon, about five feet in ether direction of my car, and lots and lots of fog/snow. And it was 18 degrees. BRRRRRrrrrrr. So guys, just to let you know, we live in Hell. and I mean it literally, if I go to Hell, this is what it will be.
Sorry this is a really negative post, so if you were looking forsomething inspirational/happy, i'll give youa nice quote.
~Valentine's Day is a holiday invented by greeting card companies to make people feel like crap.

Well happy late thanksgiving to you all. I hope all went well. I actually had a rather enjoyable thanksgiving. MY fun cousin was here, and she brought an exchange student with her, Aden. He was from France and Egypt (not quite sure excatly what that was all about). He wants to be a doctor, possible pediatrics, and is interested in art. He also listens to classical music, he played me a piece by Bach that was his favorite song. How cute, and he's a vegetarian. Needless to say, I was able to make Wonder Woman very jealous, and she asked "Well she's bringing him back for christmas right?".
Update on the Ukranian election deal. So Yanucovych won, (the bad guy) btu, Yuschenkos' followers had big protests in Kieve, and Lviv. And now the Ukrainian supreme court is going to review the electoin, because there were accusations of about 3 million falsified votes on Yanukovych's part. So there's still hope.
In other news, I got my toe pads today! and Jeano's toe shoes no longer cause me great physical pain. Yey. they hardly hurt at all. I'm way excited. And all the college friends are home for the weekend, well except Wonder Woman, but we're going to have a way good time anyway.
And final news, we've had our first snow todya. And it's really pretty. So I think I just might go build a snow man. Tata for now.

I recently went to the boys footbal game, and took pictures, Aden is threatening me with death if I don't post some soon, so here are a few of the better ones.



Double exposure! Yey!


Enjoy. There are more, but I didn't feel like scanning them all, and some have yet to return from developing.

Love and apertures
~Mandar

Latest Ukranian election udate:

Both candidates declare victory in Ukraine vote
Last Updated Mon, 22 Nov 2004 05:40:05 EST

KYIV - There are conflicting results in Ukraine 's run-off presidential vote. The first ballot results favour Prime Minister Viktor Yanukovitch, but Western-funded exit polls say Viktor Yuschenko is headed for victory.

The conflict in results was not unexpected.

Viktor Yushchenko holds his infant son, Taras, as he leaves a polling station in Kyiv Sunday. (AP photo)

There were charges of fraud after the first round of balloting three weeks ago by Yuschenko's supporters.

On Sunday after the first exit poll results were released, those supporters were in a mood for celebration. But as Monday morning arrived they were more concerned with an accurate vote count. They say they don't trust their government do it fairly.

Yuschenko, who has pledged to move the former Soviet republic closer to the European Union, told his supporters this was a contest not just for him, but the country. "My nation today is going through a test of its democracy," he said. "Each nation goes through a difficult period when it is tested for its will to live freely."

Yanukovitch, whose powerbase is in eastern Ukraine wants to maintain close cultural and economic ties with Russia. He has promised to make it easier for Ukrainians to obtain dual Russian citizenship and to make Russian, spoken by 30 per cent of the population, an official language.

Yanukovtich campaigned with spin doctors from Moscow, millions of dollars from the shady business clans and a fawning state media.

"I believe that reason will prevail and the deliberation and tolerance of the Ukrainian people will do their part," he said.

Their was high emotion in the final days of the campaign. Some supporters of Yanukovitch claimed the opposition would take to the streets to steal the election.

Yuschenko's supporters were discouraged by widespread voting fraud against their candidate in the first round three weeks ago. They seemed desperate for justice, invoking even. St. Michael, the patron saint of Kyiv. "Today is the big celebration of St. Michael's Day," said one supporter, "and I hope St. Michael will help us."

Viktor Yanukovich greets supporters outside a polling station in Kyiv Sunday. (AP photo)

Western observers say there is no doubt the vote was badly marred.

"There's been systemic fraud taking place in the electoral process today. And leading up to the voting today there has been systemic intimidation," said Borys Wrzesnewskyj, the Liberal MP for Etobicoke Centre and an election observer. Whatever the final numbers are, he says, the vote was organized to ensure Yuschenko 's defeat.

Another observer, Jim Jacuta, director of the Canadian Institute of Ukrainian Studies, says the outcome of the race could change the politics of the post-Soviet countries in the region.

"If Ukraine goes down, then this area of the world becomes something like a new political structure and it can take on some very bad features. And that could be something like a new fascism, something like a new Stalinism. We don't know what it will be, but clearly it won't be democracy."

Yushenko's supporters have declared victory, but the problem is so have Yanukovitch's. The country's electoral commission has 15 days to count the ballots. But even then, the result may very not be accepted by all

I'm freaking out. I really don't want Yanukovitch to win. My poor Ukranian friends would be stuck in fascisim for probably a really long time.

(this is Ira, the e-mail sender)

(and Martin what a cutie)
I'm soooo scared. Pray hard guys. I'd really appreciate it.

I've had a request to print a retraction for my insensitive blogging habbits this past march and April. I called Wonder Woman a self ritous person. and a few other things, and I appologize for that. I also damned Paco quite a few tiems, pre-prom, and I appologize for that as well. You did enough feeling bad this spring, you need to be done. And I really wasn't that mad at you persay, but I was generaly pissed off all of last spring. So I appoligize for my insensitive blogging, and anyone else I may have wronged in my quest to bore you with my life.
Now on to a fascinating subject. The wonder that is Wondre Woman. I was orignially going to post her last will and testament that she dictated the day she inhaled iron out fumes, but it appears to be missing so we're going to have to settle for something a little bit less. Wonder Woman was kind enough to do my hair for prom last year, even though it took flippin forever, and we used like a gallon of hairspray. Now this sin't us at prom, but ti's from homecoming, and it's basically the idea. She was also kind enought to wake me up from my summer naps to "do something". And she was nice enough to stop on the way home form King Arthur to et my somethign warm when I had a fever. And that is the wonder that is Wonder Woman. Until next time. Havea wonderful weekend.

Realizations of the week:
1.I am 1134 pennies tall
2.In the Crappsville school system not caring has no effect on your grades
3.You can BS your way through any school presentation here
4.Edit, Undo doesn't work in real life
5.I've been a lot quieter in the past than I realized
6.It's late
7.Painting is alot more fun if you care about what you're painting
and finally
8. Caffeine for lunch is better than sleep.

Today I had a pretty low key day, went to school came home and slept till 9. When I got up I told my mom that I thought I'd go in to town and get a movie. She looks at me and goes, Amanda it's late. I couldn't believe her, it was 9:30! SoI told her that, and went anyway. I went into the video place where Leila works, and Martin was there as well. The three of us talked for a while before Martin left, and he told me that that was the most he had ever heard me speak. Strangley, I think I believe him. I rarely spoke to people I didn't know well until last year. It's a good thing I got that out of my system before college.
Speaking of college. I think next year I"m going to be sick of making new friends every year. Last year I had very different friends from the year before, this year I have a bunch of new friends again, and next year I'm hopefully going to makea bunch more new ones. The problem is, I'm havign trouble keeping people straight as it is. I can see why people usually only stay in contact with one of two of their high school friends. It's sad, but kinda necessary.
Anyway, back to the realizations. So after I got home, I was watching "Thirteen" and working on my new painting, when I screwed up on part of the new one, and I immediatly though 'Edit, Undo'. But you knoww hat? That doesn't work on paintings. Go figure. I couldn't believe myself, I just dropped my brush and though Oh wow. I don't know if I mentioned this yet, but I finished the wheat painting!!! Yey, finally.
And I really have to get to sleep, because I'm working the Affair of Tables tomorrow, but I wanted to ask you guys a favor. My friend from Ukraine sent me this e-mail today:

hello my dear friends!
it's good to be writing u again :)
u know what i wanna ask u for a favor! i have a huge prayer request!
as u know we're gonna have an elections of the President of Ukraine this Sunday, Nov, 21. and the things that are happening in Ukraine now just terrible to watch. i mean Ukraine has 2 candidates: Yanukovich and Yushchenko. Yanukovich is looking on Russia and actually not much cooperation with the western countries. besides he's in policy only a few years, because before he was in prison for 2 times! i am a patriot of my country and say the truth i don't like his policy at all because he's trying to get us into some kind of union with Russia again and i don't want some kind of prisener to be a president of my country. and i feel like it's about time for Ukraine to be independent for real!
the other one Viktor Yushchenko. i really like his policy. first of all he's smart he knows what he's saying and ppl know his policy for 11 years now. and our present president is afraid of him and his policy. because he wants to low the taxes, get rid of bribes and he wants Ukraine to be European country! but someone was trying to poison him once and now he has a very ugly face, he almost died. the's no commercials about him, only about the other one. i mean u have to be afraid that smth bad will happen if ppl know u vote for Yushchenko. and it proves me one more time that there's smth in his policy that present authority afraid of!
this is the most important day in the history of independent Ukraine! it depends on the results of elections in which direction Ukraine will go starts with next Monday!
PLEASE! PRAY FOR THE TRUTH DURING ELECTIONS. AND SO PPL WILL KNOW TRUTHFUL RESULTS AFTER.
AND IT'S ONLY MY PRAYER NEED BUT PLS PRAY FOR YUSHCHENKO TO BE A WINNER! I KNOW GOD HEARS THE PRAYERS!
THANK U AND GOD BLESS U!

and I was wondering if you would pray for her/the election as well. I'd greatly appreciate it. And I know she would also.

Hey look, posts two days in a row. *silly arm fling thing* Today's topic: Today. Well, today was a day like any other day at Crappsville high school...completely pointless. So we watched a movie about shakespeare in English, and of course we had to take notes, because we are still not mature enough to actually watch a movie if we are not forced to. Mine are pretty interesting, there is about a 10min gap where I fell asleep, it's like Shakspeare began his writing career, shakespear died...... Ooops, my bad. Then during second hour all the seniors got called down to the autitorium, to get a lecture about car war stuff that has been happening, and we have Mr. L tell us that he was dissapointed in us for not being better role models, etc etc. It was aweful, I'm so sick of getting lectured for stuff I haven't done. I just want to go on my merry way and get off to college where people light cars on fire, but the whole class doesn't have to get a lecture, the offensive students are arrested, and that's that. We also did our presentation in Bio today that I was pretty worried about, not sure why now, because Mr. G is the easiest grader ever, and we jsut spouted out some crap, and he told us we did a nice job. *Shrug*
I got my letter of rec back from Mr. F today for the U honors application, and he's good at selling people. Heck I think I'd accept me if I read that letter (lets just hope the addmissions committee feels the same way). I also got pictures back today! Yey so much fun. I'll be posting them on Deviantart when I get the chance(as in not tonight). I'm thinking of photoshopping one and making a print for my mother for christmas, but I'm not sure How to accomplish that as of yet(making the print that is). We'll see what I come up with.
And finally, I had gymnastics again tonight, and it was a good time, way too easy, but a good time. We did this thing where you land on your knees on the trampoline, and then do a front tuck, and I actually did it, which shocked me, because I don't belive I've managed that particular skill before, but I now have trampoline shaped bruises/abrasions on my knees. It's funny though, I kind of look like a waffle iron. Hehe, a waffle iron.
Well I need to get back to my painting, only menial details left. I might post it when It's completed, if you're good that is. Sorry, this is a very rambly post, so I'm going to leave now and let you get on with you merry lives. Have a Wonderful Wednesday.

And it looks like someone has a case of the Mondays. Probably me. I've had a case of the mondays for the past three weeks. It's been rough. Falling of chairs, running into sideview mirrors, and just plain stupidity. Ah well, cest la vie. I haven't had much jouranling energy lately. I wrote in my paper journal for the first time in almost a week last night. And last night, Mahinda, Rory and I went to Adens to "work" on Pre-calc, though we ended up playing highlighters. We did get most of it done, so yey for that, and Rory got some good quotes last night, and I will post them.....Now! "I'm gonna pick your nose or something." Threatening Aden during a competative game of chess. And upon losing the game, and knocking over Aden's king "Your king just had a heart attack." But don't worry there's a kicker. "Beam me up snotty!"
So highlighters is this awesome game, if you've ever played spoons you know how to play, you just don't know you know how to play. So what happens is the dealer deals you each four cards, and keeps the rest of the pile, and there are highlighters in the middle of the table (one less than there are people playing), and what you want to do is get four of a kind. The dealer starts, and takes a card from the pile, and decideds whether they want it or not, (you can only have four cards in your hand at once) and discrads one, and then the first person to get four of a kind grabs a highlighter, and the other players no matter what they have all grab for one too. And the person left without a highlighter loses. Now, in the event a highlighter should come apart in the grabbing, the player who obtains the larger half wins. And no Makinda, you cannot grab highlighters befoer you have four of a kind.
Even more exciting news!! I have real photoshop now!!!!!! Exciting. I'm going ot post my first creatoin right....Here!

I'ts nothing special, just fun wit the clone tool, but fun it was, and I know the tree struggles quite a bit, but I dont' care, because I have rela photoshop! Have a lovely week. Tata.

Well good Firday to you all. I was just playing around with an image hosting site that Aden was kind enough to show me and we're going to try posting pictures in here. Drum roll please.....

So this is a picutre of our happy couple. *puts on beret and artist persona*I painted to background with red, so as to convey the romantic feel of the picture.


Next we have a picture from the Chior Festival, and does the guy circled in yellow not look like Elijah wood? This one is just for Lola. There are some of the EGS guys in here as well.


A yes, Game night. Rory appears to be portraying a seal perhaps. We were in the middle of a rousing game of Barbie queen of the prom. Rory won. She was better at using her freinds than the rest of us.


And finally we have Art Day. Mahinda decided to show us her shimmy skills, and the others decided to be naughty. Shock!

So I'm up really late tonight, because I took a nap this afternoon as I wasn't feeling too hot, and ended up sleeping for four hours. Apparently I was woken up five tiems before I actually go tout of bed. I only remember one. huh.
I had an idea tonight. I was thinking that if I were to take a picture of a negative, and then look at the negative, it should be the right colors no? I'm going to test it out, and see what happens. But I have a painting to attend to . Wish my photos luck.

Well hello again. So I finished early once again in webpage. I haven't blogged at home much recently. It's easier to do here. I'm completely frozen right now, I think I might have a fever. Sigh, this is one of the reasons I hate winter. I always get sick. So last night I had gymnastics, and it went pretty well. I had a really nice wipe out on the tramp. It overrotated a front tuck, and landed on my face. I even have a few scrapes to show for that one. Then, i was on my way home, and I thought the area wasn't looking all that familiar, and I finally realized I had gone three miles past my turn, so I had to turn around, and go three miles back.
Exciting news! I did my pre-calc during school today, and I got done! And i understood it ! K, I'm tried, and don't feel like writing any more today. So I'm going to go....do nothing.
hunting and no stage directions

Oh my goodness, if I here boom boom boom one more time, I'm going to flip. I hate hunting, and I especially hate living in this stupid town where everyone thinks hunting rules the world (second to football of course). I can't wait to move to a city where people don't hunt. I don't appreciate coming home, and finding a deer heart on my counter, and then having my family cook it for supper. EEEEW! I also don't appreciate gory stories about gutting deer and all the details while I'm eating lunch.
During english today, it was so sad. Mr. D was going to discuss the independent novel stuff with people, and have them done for tomorrow, but he spent the whole period discussing hunting. I was looking at one of the text books in his classroom, and I really wish we could study out of that, I saw an exerpt from the Illiad, and Macbeth is in it, and a story about Sir Gawaine. *jealous*
To dreamweaver and beyond!

Well, another weekend draws to a close. This year is going to super fast. I love it. I can't wait to go to college, although I am realyl going to miss my friends here a lot. Wonder Woman keeps telling me stories about how much fun she is having in California, and all the cool things she gets to do. She got to go see Carmen this weekend, and she got to go to the beach. *Jealous*
So we had the big section football game vs EGS on Friday, and they squished us. Oh well, we went last year, it's their turn. After the game we went to Mahinda's house, and we played four square for like an hour, and it got competative, spiking, hitting people with the ball *cough*Aden*cough*. Then we watched Girl Interrupted, which I really enjoyed, but it may have been a bit heavy for the night.
I had fun on saturday, I slept in, and then took some pictures, and I was making some new fish for our walls in the Sunday School room, because the ones we have are almost all full, and I decided I'd realyl like to take a water color class. I think that oculd be really fun. But alas our school does not offer water colors, or photography. Sigh. Oh well, there's always college. But, I have homework, and scholarship apps etc to work on.
Up up and away?

Happy Friday to you. I just realized while watching Channel one, that I had a really creepy dream last night. I drempt that President Bush resigned, because the death toll of service people had reached 300,000. There had been some major massacre or something apparently, because the death toll isn't even close to that yet. I'm really glad that usually my dreams don't come true.
So tonight is the big football game. Sections vs our biggest rival EGS. I think it will be a really good game. They always are, although we struggled at homecoming. I hope if we do win our fans are a littel nicer to them than last year, because last year we were just cruel.
Well we're not doing anything in web page again, so I think I'm going to go paint. talk later.

Was it bad for you? It was bad for me. It's over, it's over, it's over. The election that is. It's finally over *Halleluia Halleluia*. Though I can definitly say that alot of people wish it weren't. Paco was not in a happy mood today, Lola was enraged on msn, a rough day for the hardcore democrats. I found it really strange, last night I was talking to a guy form Australia, and he was watching the election as well. I found that really strange, since he's our age. But, to each his own. In other news, I wrote an election day song, that i thought I'd share with the populace. You sing it ot the tune of Chestnuts roasting on an open fire. Here goes:

Popcorn popping in a stir crazy bowl
Pre-calc sitting inert
Election day polls being flung everywhere
Merry november 2nd to you
Everyone knows that it will be a close one
Nader helps to make the election tight
Colored states on the map all aglow
Tom Browckaw will not sleep tonight

We know that anarchies on it's way

The ballots bring us hanging chads and delays
The news casters will keep us at bay
Keeping us form writing in a name or two
And so I'm offering this simple prayer
To voters eighteen to ninety two
although it's been said many times many ways
Merry November 2nd to you

Ok, so the end is a little sketchy. But I did my best, and I wrote it at like 11 last night. So there you have it. Nov 3rd 2004. A day that will live in infamy?
Oh, and we had anothe sucessful dya in yearbook, no one did a thing excpet Katie, Mr. Eff and I, then when we wasked the classes opinion on the folio we worked all day to create they ripped it to shreds. Well, at least we accomplished something. Or did we? Sigh, should I really hate that class as an editor?