Where is my mail?

I logged into my unniversity e-mail account today, and everything is gone, except for the e-mail addresses I put in my book last summer. But I'm quite annoyed, because I had e-mails that had important information in them for bible camp and health advocateness next fall. Grr, Stupid beuracracy (I don't know how to spell it).

In other news, I had a dream last night that I was leaving for Bible Camp, and realized that I hadn't packed anything, and as I was packing I looked at the time, and it was one o'clock already. I'm supposed to be there between 1 and 2 for lifeguard training, and Menagha is more than an hour away. It was scary, I didn't make it in my dream, I was still packing when I woke up.

In a different dream I was at a gymnastics class, and it was intense, people were getting injured, and falling down, an all kind of things. I for some reason wasn't doing much though, I just sat and watched. Then Mrs. Knutson (gym teacher from high school) was there, and we had to do conditioning. Part of the conditioning was to do push ups on someone elses outstretched arms. The girls who did that had some serious arm strenght.

Back in Croox, it's wierd. Everything is short, and devoid of humanity. I drove home from Al's at 2:30 today, didn't meet a sinlge car in the 10 miles from his house to mine, didn't even see a person downtown. Creeepy. It's really dark too, it was freaking me out to drive with my dim lights on, I couldn't see anything. And Al picked out this amazing movie for us to watch. It was called The Poseidon Adventure. And turned out to be a two part made for TV movie similar to the actualy movie in theaters currently.

Today was a strange day. I went to my eye appointment this morning, and then came home, potted my new plant for next year, and started working again on re-organizing my stuff after moving in 2 and 1/2 hours. Today I tackled old class material and textbooks. I'm going to sell my textbooks on Amazon market place and get probably 2-3 times the amount back I would have gotten from the bookstore. I also sorted the material I had from all of the classes I had saved going back to junior year of high school. Bequeathing my pre-calc and chemistry stuff to Ben, I made room for my collegiate notebooks and books. I threw a lot of useless crap away today.

I pretty much relived 8th-12th grade in the process of cleaning out my shelves, I kept a journal a good part of those years, and if not I had class material and notes to help me remember. It was crazy, I read my journal from ninth grade, and I was not a happy camper, and last year I was extremely confused and unsure of myself. I can safely say I'm in a much better place right now, I'm still not entirely sure of myself, but I can tell that I'm improving. I had no break down over my slowly falling gpa this semster, there is still hope for Biology and Freshman Seminar, and if not, next semester there is a bright light in Nutrition, Peer Mentoring, and Biology Colloqium. It was so funny, I found notes I'd passed with Ashley and Lindsey N in 8th grade, and it was amazing what snotty little 8th graders we were. And I was reminded that at one time I wasn't so terribly nerdy, though I was defintly lost and not only was I unsure of myself I didn't know which self to be unsure of. I've thanked God many times that I'm not in high school this year.

I took pictures today as well. And to close on kind of a depressing note I think one of our two oldest cats is dying. She's been with us since I was 5, developed cancer on her ear last year, which was removed, but now she's limping noticably. But it's only fair, in people years she's already dead, and she's had a good life, chasing mice, eating and sleeping, with a warm bed to come home to. Okay, I lied funny anecdote. My other old cat, Courtney, who is mostly brain dead came outside with me for a bit today. We were sitting on the front step, when she spooked, and ran head-long into the front door. This is a brown metal/wood door, it's not even glass. Poor thing has always been a little confused,

I have to go back to studying really soon, but I decided to post quickly first. So this morning Alex and I went over to the Co-op and bought lunch. No need to suffer food poisoning during finals week again. I had soup, and it was amazing; we ate underneath the lilac bush, and it was so wonderful. I love living here, and I love all the flowers right now.

Last night was a lot of fun as well. Anne, Erin and I went out and got dirt for our poor corn and bean plants from Bio lab that have been living in paper towels. We found really good dirt too... in the flower bed near Middlebrook. Ooops, we may have borrowed some. And then we went to smell the flowering crab tree between Jimmy Johns and the Co-op. We each picked a flower off of it, and then picked Lilacs off of the bush on the way back. We decided we were flower children for the night, and even took pictures with our newly happy plants. Mine have actually grown an amazing amount since last night. They look really good.

Erin, me and Anne.

FYI I'm going to complain now, so if you wan to stop reading now is a good time. I don't want to go home. I love living in a place that more than 8,000 people live in. There is a reason more people live here. When I was eating with Alex today, I realized how much happier I've been since I came to college. The big difference is that in high school when I'd walk by someone, and they'd laugh I assumed they were laughing at me, and you know what, many times I was right. Here, if I'm in the same situation, I assume that the people are happy, and it makes me happy as well, instead of making me want to curl up in a ball and die a little bit. Ok, that's a little over-dramatic, but it's the same sentiment. I'm just really happy that I don't have to be labeled a prude, or ackward though that one is true, or anything else here. I love being label free. Alright, my chemistry is calling. I'll talk to you all later. I do miss my cats though, Crox has that going for it.

Hello All,

I am currently taking a quick study break, because my brain says ouch. If I'm still on here in 15 mins kick me off. I've done a lot of calculus this weekend, I did 5 chapter reviews, and all I have left is a sample final, related rates, optimization problems, and logarithms as integrals. Then there is Biolgoy. Bah, I need just one more day in between these two. but that's not going to happen. Photosynthesis in evil. But you know what, replication, trascription and translation of DNA/RNA are much better. I do really need to work on the new stuff though. FYI this is basically thinking out loud for me, so don't feel obligated to read it.

In other news, a girl in my wing has mumps. There is a new strain ravaging high schools in Iowa right now, and it's currently 3 doors away. Frightening. I don't have time to be sick for 2 weeks, until christmas. Sigh. Well, I have four minutes left, I think I'll be off. Good luck with your finals to my college student friends, and my high school friends, good luck wrapping up the end of the year. I'll be seeing you in a hectic week.

Hello Everyone,

So this past weekend I flew home to attend prom with Albert. The flight was fine, although my back did not appreciated the weight of the luggage. Saturday I got up early to go get my hair done, painful in more than one way, and picked up my flowers from Montague's. Then I went home and worked on my paper and oral report for yesterday. Albert and I got ready later and took some pictures when he realized that he hadn't done his hair yet, so we did his hair, and had to leave for the grandparents' houses for more pictures.

At my gradparents there was minimal difficulty, they even opened the garage for us since it was raining. We finished their roll of film, and my grandma sent us off with cookies and M&M's. Then we went to Al's grandparents house, and his whole family was there! It was a bit intense, but they were all really nice. Al's gradma even made a sexual inuendo, I was taken off guard, but it was pretty funny. Then we headed to prom.

We ended up sitting with some juniors, most of them very decent kids. And then the whole room did the "OOOOOOoooh" chant. Augh. I really didn't know what to do with myself, there were so many people I sort of knew. I talked to Jean and Gillian a little bit, and it was good to see them again. But then Al left me to go visit with some of his friends and I was like " No, don't leave me alone with these people." Not out loud of course. He got invited to several drinking parties after prom, and declined them on account of me. And i was back in my Crookston prude role. We ate the food which was mediocre, we ate the chippers which were great. And we decided we'd had enough, signed ourselves out in case our parents called. (I had trouble with that since I can walk down chicago and franklin without telling my parents but if I leave the Northland I might get into some real trouble.) Said goodbye to Mr. F and Mrs. G. I really like Mrs. G she's totally a city girl, and I'm really sorry that she's stuck in Crookston.

Then we went back to Al's house, I had a minor nervous breakdown, we watched a movie and went to bed relatively early. Whew.

Never agian will I set foot in a prom, or wear that poofy of a dress.