Stole this from Peter who alos stole it. An incredibly ironic list of songs that I have in my iTunes, very random, do be warned.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.No cheating!(Song - Artist)

What does next year have in store for me?Never Let You Down- DMB

How would I describe my life at the moment?Rocks- Ben Jelen

What's my love life like?To the Moon and Back- Savage Garden

What are your feelings about your current fling?Points of Authority- Linkin Park (well that's unfortunate)

What do I say when life gets hard?Like Father, Like Son- Aida

What do you think of when waking up?Bring on the Men- Jekyll and Hyde (ha, oh yes)

What song will I dance to at my wedding?Vertigo- U2

What song will be played at my funeral?They'll know we are Christians by our Love- Jars of Clay (Ironic since I no longer think I am a Christian)

How will I be remembered?Too Much of Heaven- Eiffel 65

What do you want as a career?Sympathy, Tenderness- Jekyll and Hyde (so I'm going to be a whore, or a wife? ...maybe both?)

Your favorite saying?On Fire- Switchfoot

Favorite place?The Christians and the Pagans- Dar Williams

What do you think of your parents?Wash- Lifehouse (kind of fitting actually)

What's your Pornstar name?Closer to Fine- Indigo Girls

Where would you go on a first date?Rent- RENT (sweet, I love RENT)

Drug of choice?Woman- Maroon 5 (?)

Describe yourself:Who I am Hates Who I've Been- Relient K

How would others describe you?Carousel- Linkin Park

How does your ex-girlfriend/boyfriend see you?Lonelily- Damien Rice

What is the thing I like doing most?Give Unto Me- Evanescence

What is my state of mind like at the moment?So I Need You- 3 Doors Down

If I were a song, what would I be?Affirmation- Savage Garden (I like it)

I am now emerging from the depths of what we like to call Bible Camp. I've had two weeks of training and three weeks with campers already. Five weeks with campers left, and I'm done. It's really sad to think that. My day camp the second week of June was a ton of fun, not too difficult, but so much fun. My Elemetary week two weeks ago was rough, one pretty homesick girl, and eight more girls with incredible lungs. We did the low ropes course with them too, which is probably more than they should be doing. One of my girls got dropped, and hurt her back a bit. This past junior high week was rewarding, but definitly tough. I had boy crazy girls whom I had never dealt with before, and I had to have the "we're-here-to-worship-God-not-to-hook-up-with-boys" talk multiple times. the schedule was insanity too. I worked from 10:30 on Sunday until 2:30 tuesday without a break, except of course for sleeping at night. A few unlucky counselors lost three of their seven hours off for the week. But at the end of the week we were sad to see many of them go.

I am now gettignr eady to go on a trip. this is the first trip I've ever planned by myself, and it's a little scary. We have campsite reservations, an atlas, a spread sheet with our meals planned out, and lots of lists. We leave in four days. Caraziness! I'm excitred though, we're going to Glacier National Park, and I've never been there before. Also I get to spend almost seven whole days just Chris and I, that's a record. As great as it is to be at camp together, we have only worked one of the three weeks together so far,a nd we can't really be a couple, becasue the campers aren't supposed t know, or it becomes a focus for the week.

Anyway, I need to go start my fourth load of laundry for the day, and probably shower.

The End.

Alright, so I found a group on facebook for people with Chron's disease and Ulcerative Colitis, and I just had to share a post from one of the topics, becasue it's so perfect. Sorry if it's a bit graphic for some, but it made me really happy. Also, there is a bill trying to be passed in 12 states, and has alreayd been passed in illinois stating that people with bathroom related medical conditions cannot be denied access to restrooms even if they're not for public use. Someone was thinking.

You know you have Ulcerative Colitis when...
-When you travel, your meds have their own suitcase.
-You're happy when you have a big loud burp because you're thankful it's not coming out the other end
-You know every bathroom where you work, and everyone knows where you are headed when you say...."I'll be right back" with a funny look on your face.
-Your colon gurgles and its so loud that everyone around you asks if you are hungry.
-Truck stop bathrooms don't even phase you.
-You know where the bathroom is everywhere you go
-You have your Gastroenterologist on speed dial
-You carry your own toilet paper.
-You bring your own food for just you to a holiday party
-You friends keep asking you "Can you eat this?"
-You look at every ingredient on everything you eat
-You've always the designated driver
-You crave salad, but excercise self control and get pasta instead.
-You keep all your books in the bathroom next to the toilet
-You think you should buy stock in wet wipes
-You order three months of meds and they come in a box so big your neighbors think you got a new TV.
-You are the youngest patient in your Gastroenterologist's office.
-Your General Physician runs because he thinks you are a hypochondriac. He then gives you a free flu shot because he is tired of referrals.
-You regularly stock the bathroom with extra rolls of Toilet paper
-You are better at describing the intricacies of poo than wine.
-You wonder if that's really going to be a fart.
-You can say, "It's not the colonoscopy that's bad, it's the PREP!"
-You have a standard answer when anyone asks, "What's UC?"
-You go to pick up the *evil* Prep at the pharmacy and the pharmacist, who is about your age says, "I'm sorry."
-You can tell your parents that a colonoscopy isn't a big deal
-You are on a first name basis with your Gastroenterologist.
-You're thankful big purses are in style so you can carry your pill organizer with you.
-When you get SICK of people asking you "How are you feeling?".
-You undo your belt and zipper before you even enter the bathroom.
-You go house or apartment hunting and you are only interested in the number and location of bathrooms.
-You have a pill count contest with your grandmother (and win)
-When seeing blood is no longer a cause for concern.
-Your friends ask you in hushed voices how that stomach thing is going
-People who manage a glimpse into your purse give you strange looks, assuming you're addicted to pills, close friends make sure you remember those pills.
-Everyone is your Gastroenterologist's office knows your name without looking on the chart or the sign in sheet.
-The Lab techs tell you that they are going to name their next lab machine in honor of their best customer.
-Your Morning workout is a Sprint to the bathroom
-When your pharmacist comes to your house for pills because they know you have them, but they ran out.
-You have 3 different sizes of the same clothes.
-You are in Remission and just appreciate the little things in life that you overlooked before you had UC.

I have very little to do today, since I have an entire week to study for my O Chem final, now I know how a certain someone in my proximity has felt all year. So I'm going to do somehting completely pointless, because I can! Oh, and there is a two hour long Grey's Anatomy tonight, score!

1. When you're home alone, do you still close the door when you use the restroom?: generally yeah
2. If you have to go grocery shopping, would you rather go alone or with someone?: that depends on the someone, but Laurie and I have a pretty good time grocery shopping.
3. It's your best friend's birthday, do you buy them a gift even though they didn't buy you one for yours?: most likely, unless we've enstated a no gift because we have no money policy.
4. You win the lottery. Lump sum or small payments over a period of time?:if they ended up being the same amount, the lump sum, you make some nice interest.
5. Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level? reasonable level, though once in a whike in my car I like it loud, ex. RENT.
6. Are you a beach person or a snowy mountain person?beach for sure
7. When do you brush your teeth? as soon as I get up, before I go to bed, and if i feel the inclanation during the rest of the day.
8. Can you watch scary movies alone? I can, but I choose not to
9. Soft bed or firm? soft, camp beds arenot my favorite
10. Would you rather stay home all day, or be out and about? at home probably, but i do like being out and about for portions of the day.
11. What's one of your worst memories?: flashing my 5th grade class, or late winter of 9th grade
12. Do you like to keep the peace or be confrontational?: I'm most definitly a peace keeper
13. Are you more likely to be with a large group of people or a few close friends?few close friends
14. What are your plans for October?: school
15. If money were not a problem, where would you like to live?:in a glass house under the ocean so I could see all the fish and whales, and dolphins!
16. What is your ideal profession? physician
17. Are you close to your parents?: close enough, i talk to then a couple times a week, though not always that frequently.
18. What is one fear that you can't seem to overcome?: people touching my neck
19. Are you good at math?: no
21. Is there anyone that you regret ever meeting?: um, not that I can think of
22. Rate your life on a scale from 1 - 10: 7-8 sounds good
23. Would you rather have roomates or live alone?:I wouldn't mind living a lone for a while, but I dothink I might get lonely
24. Do you like any of your friends a little more than just a friend?: um, not any of my just friends no
25. Do you like to drive?:I do, but I'm not the greatest driver, so only in low trafic situations
27. If you found out that you were going to be a parent, what would you do?: right now? panic, and be really fricken confused
28. Do you give money to homeless people when they ask?: hardly anymore, it's not the best practice
29. A weekend in Las Vegas or Miami? Miami i guess, but neither sound super appealing
30. When you go to the store, do you have a list or just buy random things?: haha, is bad if I do both?
31. What do you wear to sleep in?: a shirt and comfy pants/shorts
32. You have 3 months left to live, what do you do? quit school and take a long trip, (a mont or so, I don't suppose I'll be feeling great by the end of the three months, so yeah)
33. You're having a bad day, what one thing can make your day better?: a certain someone showing up would definitly work, but in his absence a good hug would work also probably.
34. Tanning bed? Cancer free is the way to be! (so no)
35. Is there anything you would change about your body if you could?: I would like a new large intestine , well and a calmer immune system please.
36. You wake up in an unfamiliar place, what is your first reaction?: am I still dreaming?
37. Is there anything that you should be doing right now?: no!
38. If there was a way to know when and how you're going to die, would you want that information?: um, I don't think so, because i'm sure that would change my way of life, and I kind of like my way of life right now.
39. What is your favorite breakfast food?: sausage, and juice
40. Your phone rings at 4am, who do you expect it to be? I know that its Laurie

So, who's not ready for the next couple weeks of life? *raises hand* One month from this past friday I will be in Menahga beginning staff training, and starting another crazy awesome summer at camp. I am so excited. At my interview last year for camp the program director told me kind of as a warning, I guess, that camp is a ton of fun, but most people say at the end of the year it's the hardest work they've ever done. Chris and I talked about that this weekend, and both of us don't find that to be true. First of all, yeah ,you get physically tired, because it's 100 degrees for a week and you're still running around 15 hours a day trying to keep up with your campers, but you don't burn out nearly as fast as when you're at school. Second of all, it's stuff you want to be doing, sure things like hobos and work projects aren't great, but they're a small price to pay for the rest of the week.

Two weeks from today I will be in Moorhead with a van full of my stuff, and done with school for almost four months. That'll be a good feeling. Especially since Chris took his last final on Friday. He came down to visit me this weekend, and left at 5:30 this morning, crazy guy, had to get back for Sunday School though, I admire that dedication. It was a pretty good weekend, Chris was officially initiated into the city by being spit on by an obviously jaundiced drunk guy at the bus stop asking for money, it was pretty disgusitng. That evening he took me out to Crown College, which is about 30 miles out of the city so we could be somewhere quite, and it was quiet, it was fabulous. We went and sat on a really shaky dock on their lake and watched what we think may have been a lot of otters feeding on the lake. It was fabulous.

Today I have a crap load of things to do for next week, I have my lab practical tomorrow, a Micro quiz on tuesday, and on wednesday I have a report, and worksheet due in OChem lab, and a final in Psych. But thursday on out is pretty easy going, as far as finals weeks go, I have my O Chem final on Thursday, and a non-cumulative Micro final on Friday, so I pretty much have a solid week to study. Alright, I really have to do stuff now, I may resurface after finlas, we'll see.

Hello All, this has been an interesting week. I'm beginning to feel the pressure of finals approaching, and getting into med school. Haha, maybe a little premature for med school worries, but hey, that's how I roll. I am really ready for this semester to be done. I want to be done with massive amount of homework all the time, having no life except for the weekends Chris visits, and even then having to do homework. And I'm tired of the weekends Chris doesn't visit (or I don't visit him).

I had an epiphany yesterday as to par of the reason I'm so on edge here. There's so much noise, everywhere. Not only do i have a noisy roommate, i have noisy neighbors, and we're right in the center of campus, so I have all the outsdie noise. It's never quite, and I need a little quite to be sane. So Chris said when he coems down in two weeks (when he's done with his finals, how unfair is that?) that he will drive me to a place outside of the city, somewhere quite that we can hang out for a day or less. I'm already really excited.

Other than that, not too much as been happening, I'm gettin really ready to be at camp. though, i'm owrried i won't have the energy for it. Let's hope that's not true, and that the energy will return once I've had some time to res after finals and am back in that setting. Other exciting news, Peter and Betsy are going to be in the cities when Chris comes back once again to help me move out, so we are probably going to hang out with them. Oh, also I now have a Grey's Anatomy group. Woot.

Alright, so it's been a while. And it has also been a crazy past, well month I guess. Spring break was fun, visited Laurie, saw some dolphins, visited Chris, saw Mark Schulz, a good time overall. Last week was insanity, I had three exams, and an O Chem lab report due. But, I survived until thrusday, adn then Chris arrived since someone goes to a Lutheran school and gets and Easter break. It was a really nice weekend, we went to the SDC show that Alex and Brent were in, and we had a more successful adventure to Como, actually getting to see everything, and not freezing to death. Quite a lot more successful. We also made an easter cake, and hid spring eggs in my hall.

Yesterday I stayed up later doing homework than i think I ever have before. I as up until four writing a paper for Micro lab, that maybe should have gotten done over the weekend, but who cares, it's done. And today, it's snowing! Like hardcore, low visibility, staying on the ground snowing. It's the 11th of April, I will have finished my last final one month from now, and it's snowing, what kind of crap is that? Anyway, off to O Chem lab. Have a pleasant week all!

So it has been an eventful past five to six days. Chris ended up coming down on tuesday night because the weather was supposed to be really bad, which turned out to be a good idea. The weather was bad on wed, and on thursday, he made it to his tour at Luther, and then once he got back, and I finished class at two the U shut down at two thirty. Not fair right? Oh well, you deal.

Firday was an eventful day. I had some problems with my O Chem test, and then we decided to go to Como Zoo to look at the gardens. We ended up in downtwon St. Paul (because i apparently really like to go to St. Paul) and had to catch a bus goin back the other way to the zoo. By the time we got there it was 3:45, and it was closing at 4:00. So we looked at flowers and plants for about fifteeen minutes, warmed up a bit, and headed back to the bus stop. We decided maybe we should stop at starbucks in Coffman to improve the day a little bit, it was closed. We got back to my apartment and decided to take a nap, the logical course of action. And also decided that the day could still be salvaged by a movie. So we went to see Zodiac. It's three hours long! Not that it was a bad movie, it just didn't warrant three hours of our time. It was interesting.

One week until spring break, I'm pretty excited. Though this week is a little bit of craziness as well. Micro test, HA midterm tomorrow, quizzes galore on wed, meeting my mentor, mentee meeting. It's going to be fun. But I now have to go collect the O Chem test I bombed, arrivederci.

Yuck, I smell like methanol. So on tuesday my O Chem lab partner told me that she was sick, and she went in to the doctor and they said she had viral bronchitis, lanrengitis, and whooping cough. I started coughing friday night. I went in to Boynton today, and they said well, it could be bronchitis or whooping cough, so we'll treat you either way, and if it helps it could have been whooping cough, if not it could have been whooping cough or bronchitis. Yeah, Laurie and I have decided our family is on top of strange diseases. West Nile, Whooping Cough, Ulcerative Colitis, and spontaneous galbladder degeneration. Woot, go us!

Other news...Chris is coming down wednesday, that's exciting. I have an Ochem test Friday, and a Micro test Tuesday, that is not exciting. Bad timing, but We're going to try to get together with Molly and Nate nonetheless, and maybe go bowling? Or maybe another game night? We shall see.

I accepted a job as a couselor for this summer again. I'm way excited, I've missed nature and kids a lot this year, not to mention the weather. Alright, I need to get my butt doing something before Psych. Aurevior!

Today has been an interesting, but good day all around. It reached 45 degrees today! Farenheit not celcius unfortunately. It was fan fricken' tabulous. In other news, I had one of the wierdest dreams ever while I was napping. Michael J. Fox was hitting on me. My family almost missed our flight back from Hawaii only to have the plane crash. After the plane crash I regained consciousness in the car we had rented to drive back to Minnesota, and I couldn't find my shirt. We were supposed to go into a restaurant to eat, so I went back to the car to get my shirt, and it started moving, so I had to get in, and had a really hard time finding a parking spot, since I couldn't get the car to stop. It was insanity.

In reality, I ran into my Future Physician prof from last fall. It was good to see her again, she's as perky and adorable as ever, and invited me to stop by her office if I ever wanted to. I got out of Chem lab early, and Psych, and the test in psych was super easy. There's one A I can count on. And good thing too. Hopefully I'll be a nicer person tonight, yesterday I was a little short with everyone. Chris said he was a little scared of me, and he'd never heard me speak that way before. Oops.

Anyway, I have lab reports that need to be written, and O Chem that needs to be learned. Audios!

It's saturday again, and fairly less enjoyable than last Saturday, but that's to be expected. So Valentine's Day was this week. Chris and I did not celebreate, at least I don't think we did. We said we weren't getting presents, and then he told me he was working on mine, and wouldn't be ready for V-day. that confused me, since we had stated explicetly we werent doing rpesents, but he told me, welll it's not really a present. Supposedly this is not like the time we didn't wrap the Christmas presents, so I guess we'll see.

Last night I actually went out and did something, can you believe that? And, get the craziest part, I'm going out again tonight! Woah, what is happening to the world? My lab partner from O Chem, Molly, and I have become good friends this semester, so I went over to her, and her boyfriend, Nate's apartment for a game night. It was pretty fun. We played scene it, an incredibly competative round of taboo (Which was highly entertaining since Nate and I were the only sober competitors). And so you know, we played boys vs girls, and the grils kicked butt. though we did have one more person, it was three couples and I, so the guys had to work out a strange rotation system to work it out. Hopefully someday soon Chris will be in town, and we can even it out.

Ok, I'll finish with my fun nerdy story for the week. I was freaking out about life a little bit Thursday night, and as I was ranting to Laurie on the phone; I pulled out my O Chem notebook to work on my report. During lab the day before I had spilled a tiny bit of 96% surlfuric acid in it, which actually did eat through the paper, it was pretty sweet. So, somehow in the process of the report I touched the acid, and then managed to get it in my eye. So I had to go flush my eye with saline for a while, and then I gave up on life for a while and went to bed. But not to worry, I neutralized my notebook with baking soda when I got up. I think it actually worked too.

Alright, time for get this, more O Chem. Woot!

Oh, a great mom story today. so Laurie is planning a mission trip to El Salvador over spring break, and today she was talking to my mom about it. Apparently my mom does not want her to go, because......she wants to have grandchildren, and doesn't want Laurie to die so she can have grandchildren. and Laurie countered that it would be legitimate to be worried about Laurie's survival, but not that of her offspring, and besides she said "Amanda will probably get married first any way, you can count on her to have grandchildren." Lol. then we came up with a plan, because I'm still not sure with all the meds I'm on and sad genes I have if I'm going to want to have my own children or not. So we decided that I should tell her that I'm pregnant, and then adopt kids from Africa or Aisa, and show up with them saying I don't really know what happened, there must be something in the Minneapolis water. So there's the plan. I was telling Jenny this, and I told her really I bet my mom won't care as long as she has some sort of grandkids, and Jenny laughed at me and said I made it sound like they have brands.

Anyway, the O Chem test seemed ot go well this morning. Psych quiz tonight, and Micro test tomorrow, niether of which I've really studied for. In the words of Laurie, Balls. Oh, and spelling counts. Double balls. Oh well, after the test tomorrow I'm off to Moorhead, so I can't be too upset.

Have you ever had a "discussion" with someone who wasn't listening to what you had to say? Or, some one who interrupts you mid thought to go on a rant of their own. That really irritates me. Today I was discussing stuff like same sex marriage and the electoral college, you know all the stuff you're not supposed to talk tabout in polite conversation. I definitly understand why. I was mid sentence and this person interrupted me and talked for about 3 mins on their own tangent. And the conversation was pretty much over from there. Apparently I don't respond well to being interrupted mid sentence. It probably is partly because I almost never got through an entire sentence in group conversation in high school. Sorry, I had to have a quick rant, release is good.

In other news tomorrow morning it's supposed to be -13°F, feels like -28°F. Boo, I'm done with winter, and I'd really like some windows that latch. It's so freakin' cold in my room, you should see the ice around the bottom. Alright, I have to actually do some homework now.

A happy warm monday to all, and don't smile outside, your lips will freeze, it's not pleasant.

I would jsut like to say, Balls it's cold! I haven't been warm in weeks. In other news, I have a killer week coming up, Micro test, OChem test, and Psych quiz. However, thursday night will be a good time I get to ride the bus for four hours again. It's totally worth it.

In other other news, I now officially have a mentor. Her name is Jerrie, and she's this totally adorable 60 yr old lady working with Lutheran Campus ministyr, interfaith ministry, and the GLTBA. Go figure right? Exactly what I asked for. Alright, Back to O Chem, I have 3 secotions and I'm done with that for the night.

So, school is offically craziness again. I have 12 hours of lab per week. Woah, craziness. I have a real fun partner in O Chem lab though. We both had all kinds of trouble on the first lab, and are pretty sure our TA things we're idiots but whatever, we'll struggle together. I even learned two chapters of material on wed in lab this week, I missed them in lecture last semester. Tomorrow in lab we get to make banana oil, which is supposed to be fun, however we do have to write a formal lab report, which kind of blows. Oh well

In other news, I'm old. I'm not freaking out about it anymore, but i feel really old. Everyone i know is getting engaged and married and having babies. and to quote Elizabeth, "You know living on your own in New York is one thing, but having babies, that's scary." But this girl (ie me) is not having babies until she is out of medical school, but even then, that's only 5 1/2 years. that's pretty soon. Augh.

Anyway, I have two more chapters of O Chem waiting for me. Two more weeks and I get a semi-breather, woot!

I need something to occupy my mind before O Chem.

SEVEN CIRCLES

CIRCLE ONE: THE OUTSIDE
1. What's your name: Amanda
2. How tall are you: 5'3"ish
3. What color are your eyes: hazel
4. What color is your hair: uslight brunette, though the front bleached blonde over the summer
5. Are you Male or Female: female
6. What is your best feature (physically):um, i like my hari somedays, and others it's at least good for a laugh.
7. What's your shoe size: 7-71/2
8. Glasses, yes or no: si and contacts
9. Did you ever have braces: si, and all kinds of other fun orthodontics for three years before.
10. On a typical day you are wearing: more than one shirt
11. When you go to bed you're wearing: one of the aformentioned shirts and sweatpants or the target gaucho pants.
12. work out/exercise about how often: actual work out, almost never, but I take stairs and have an active job for the summertime.

CIRCLE TWO: MUSIC
1. Name five of your favorite bands: um... Snow Patrol, Jars of Clay, Goo Goo Dolls, Indigo Girls
2. Name five of your favorite singers: Amy Lee, Regina Spektor, Michael Buble, Norah Jones
3. Name three songs you are currently playing nonstop: Hard to Concentrate- Red Hot Chili Peppers, Set The Fire to the Third Bar- Snow Patrol, On Jordan's Stormy Banks I Stand- Jars of Clay
4. Name one song (give lyrics) that best describes your life right now: Set The Fire to the Third Bar- Snow Patrol
5. Name one song (give lyrics) that best describes your life one year ago: In the Sun- Joseph Arthur
6. When you're driving, what are the preset stations on your radio: I don't enjoy the radio, but whatever that random station is (104.something) around Fargo is pretty enteraining
7. What's the last CD you bought: Snow Patrol, Eyes Open
8. Was the last CD you burned an actual CD or a mix:well, both?
9. Name one song/band/singer you're embarrassed to like but do: Avril Lavigne
10. If you could only attend one concert ever again, it would be:um, the only concert I've been to is Bob Carlyle and I'd rather not do that again.
11. Name one band/singer you absoulutely can't stand: Pretty much any hardcore country
12. Name a group you use to like but feel you've grown out of:um, Spice Girls?

CIRCLE THREE: MOVIES/TELEVISION

1. Name your favorite actor: Patrick Fuget
2. Name your favorite actress: either Liv Tyler or Sandra Bullock
3. Name your favorite television show right now: probably scrubs
4. Name five really cool movies you've recently seen: The Fountain, Little Miss Sunshine, The Prestige, lol those are the movies I've seen since thanksgiving.
5. Your favorite canceled television show: Full House
7. Name one movie you wish you hadn't wasted time/money on recently: A Night at the Museum, I don't thinkI was in the mood for a Children's movie.
8. You would never watch a movie with: ummm, I don't know
9. Favorite candy/food to watch movies with: chocolate of some sort
10. Three favorite tv channels: Comedy Central, Discovery Health (I can't think of any others)
11. Favorite reality show:I don't watch reality TV
12. Favorite character on a reality show: see above

CIRCLE FOUR: WORD ASSOCIATION
(Write the first word/thing/person that comes into your head when you read this word:)
1. coffee: maker
2. dog: cat
3. slut: hair (what?)
4. candy: cane
5. pole: dance? (lol oh my brain)
6. ocean: wave
7. brave: heart
8. loving: mothers
9. cookie: monster
10. death: defying
11. life: style
12. child: 's play

CIRCLE FIVE: WHICH WOULD YOU PREFER:(bold the one you prefer)
1. Ten guilty men go free OR One innocent man goes to jail for life: I can't even decide
2. Eaten by a lion OR Eaten by thousands of small insects--lots of bugs *shudder* gross
3. A life of contentment without love OR A life with love and heartache-- why can't contentment contain love?
4. Skydiving from a plane OR Bungee jumping off a bridge--either way i'm going to get sick, so it really doesn't matter, we'll go with a bridge, the lower the starting point the more likely survival is in case of a problem.
6. No television OR No music--(Where's 5?)
7. No more pizza, ever OR No more chocolate, ever--how could you do finals without chocolate?
8. A trip to Europe OR a trip to Hawaii--
9. An hour with your future soul mate OR An hour with a lost loved one--
10. No longer being able to cry OR No longer being able to feel the need to cry--
11. Sex without love OR love without sex--
12. Loving someone who doesn't love you OR being loved by someone you don't love--

CIRCLE SIX: THE LOVE LIFE
1. Are you currently in a relationship: sure am
2. Are you currently looking/interested in someone: if that includes the aforementioned relationship then interested, yes?
3. Are you a virgin: si
4. If yes, how long do you plan to be one: the plan is until marrige
5. How many times have you been "in love": I think "in love" is a silly phrase, because there are so many different kinds of love, it can be hard to differentiate between the different types.
6. Looking back, how do you feel about that person(s) now: the kind of love I have for a couple people has shifted
7. Name three things (physically) you look for in someone: I don't usually have anything in particular in mind, though I tend to pick guys who are what my mom would call "slight in build"
8. Name three things (mentally/emotionally) you look for in someone: maturity, compassion, sense of humor.
9. Biggest turn offs include: selfishness, immaturity, lack of empathy
10. Your ideal date would be: by the ocean
11. You want to get married, where, when, how: someplace pretty, before I'm 30, um, by a pastor?
12. Does anyone have feelings for you right now that you don't return: not to my knowledge

CIRCLE SEVEN: THE FRIENDS
(of your friends, who would you say is:)
1. The one you immediately go to with a problem: Alex, and Laurie
2. The most rational: Jenny, at times
3. The funniest: Laurie
4. The one you spend the most time on the phone with: Chris (ask my dad, hey pays the bill)
5. The craziest (but in a good way): Maren
6. The most honest: Maren
7. The purest: Erin?
8. The smartest: that's tough, um probably Steve
9. The most athletic:probably Sarah
10. The most compassionate: Anne
11. The one most likely to get thrown in jail and why: Alex, she's going to be a political activist, I know she is
12. The last one that said "I love you": Maren I think.

So, as I always tend to start out my blog entries now, it's been a while. School is once again in session. Tuesdays suck, but otherwise it's pretty good. I have OChemII, OChem lab, Microbio, Psych, and Health Advocate class. O Chem will probably kill me, it's going to go faster than last semester too, I had trouble keeping up last semester. In the words of my dearest sister, balls.

Hawaii was gorgeous, and I think really good for me to get out of this climate for a little while, it tends to get me down in the spring. I got some amazing coffee as well, decaf and everything!

In exciting news, I was finally able to get life insurance! They told me in high school if I could stay healthy for a consecutive year, they would reconsider me, and I have, so, yey! The lady handling my application actually came down yesterday with my paper work, and we went over medical history, signing contracts, etc. Then once we finished the application, she turns to me, and says "So, tell me about your boyfriend." It was a little strange, though her daughter was at camp this summer, actually I'm pretty sure she was on campout with Maren and I, and she goes to my hometown church. And I didn't really know where to start, and the she asked if I had a picture so she could see if she knew which one he was. And I said I didn't but then she suggested what about on my cell phone, and so I showed her the picture of him sleeping on the way to LOWBC, and she didn't recognize him. (Which I figured out later was because that's the week he was on canoe adventure plus.) Oh life.

So, it's been a while. right now I have one week left of break, and that's ok. I'm not quite ready to go back, bu tI am getting there. I also found the guy I want to research with at the U. He's researching the "the activation of T cell responses in the gut mucosa during infectious and inflammatory bowel disease." That is exactly what I want to know! Now I just need to figure out how to get to work in his lab.

So the beginning of break I spent a lots of time with Chris, which was excellent. I met a good chunk of his extended family, and stayed in Stephen for a night which was an adventure all it's own. I've don't know if I've ever been surrounded by so much testosterone. His two older brothers were home for Christmas, and he and his younger brother were there as well. Fun story. Chris and his brothers got their mom a presetn that they didn't know how to wrap, so eventually after not being able to find a suitable box, they decided to put everything in Chris' mini fridge, and wrap that. So I helped his brother John wrap the fridge and then he carried it down and put it under the tree. I have to say I'd never seen anyone with the kind of ingenuity? It was pretty sweet.

Wel right now I'm in Kauaii for a few more days. We head home on wednesday afternoon and do the wonderful overnight flight again. I reapplied for camp this week as well, as a counselor again. I'm really excited to go back, though also a big apprehensive. No matter what though, it has to be good because in the end we're there for the kids, and if they have a good time, and hopefully learn something it's s sucess.

Oh finals week, generally the longest week in the world. Though ours is kind of a week and a half, the U always has to be different. Our apartment is so disgusting right now. I haven;t had time to clean for a couple of weeks, and I guess now that it's finals dishes are really optional on your day, even if you don't have a final that day, or the next morning? I'm thinking I'll clean a little for a study break some time in the next two days. I also am going to have some difficulty packing, I just realized. I have my clothes for Hawaii in my suitcase, and it's fairly full as it is now, plus there are Christmas presents in there. But I'm not sure how I'm going to fit everything else into one suitcase. We'll see how it goes. Though, I coudl give Chris his present while he's down here, and the free's up some space in my suitcase.

Today I take my History of Medicine final, I'm not really worried about this one, it can't be all that difficult, two essays and some primary source identification. very comparible to the midterm actually. Wed is O Chem however, and I am a little worried for that one. I have been studying some though, I reviewed the old sutff I need to know, and finished all the new stuff, well except NMR and IR spectroscopy, but since we didn't evern finish NMR in class, I'm not going to spend time on those unless I have some extra time.

In other news, I made a pie yesterday. I realized either slightly before or during the process that I had no pie pan, rolling pin, or waxed paper. However I managed to make a square pie, with a fairly thick crust. I think I should go on like homemaker survivor or something. Make a caserole with these four ingredients and tin foil, go! Anyway, I'm going to go study a little more for HMed, wish me luck!

Well, today was full of strange stories, so be ready. Let's start with this morning, I wake up, and walk into the kitchen, and there on the kitchen table is the handle for the fridge. Somehow after I went to sleep Jenny managed to pull it off. Don't ask me, I couldn't tell you. I went to History of Medicine, where we didn't start lecture for a really long time, and then found out that yes indeed I do have a sinus infection, but whatever, I've actually done a really good job of being healthy this semester, this is only the second illness.

We actually had some review in O Chem today, I couldn't believe it. After that I went to a 3 hour Calc review, which was helpful, but a lot of Calc. Hence the blogging and not learning right now. I got some Christmas cards today also. I love that people send me my own Christmas cards, though I don't usualy get all that many. I got the one from my family. We had a picture this year, it's Ben, in a hoodie in the woods. My family is so wierd. And once again, I'm the boring child, learning and working, and not traveling to Europe or burning holes in my clothes in class. But that's ok, the one time I was the interesting child was not fun, and at least the first question of me is no longer how are you feeling.

In other news, I'm in love with the Regina Specktor CD Laurie sent me. and I'm off to do more Calculus. Woot!

So, today was a day. I don't generally like wednesdays, it's just a lot of information to digest in a small amount of time. But I didn't fall asleep in Calc today, and only fell asleep for 10 mins in Hmed, I did a little more sleeping in OChem though.

In other news, I went to my first real party tonight. Krista came home from Gana today, and the poor girl must have been exhausted. She had lots of long flights, and was thinking she might be getting malaria. This was the first party I'd been at where there was alcohol served, and her roommate was trying to get me to take a jello shot, but I was like...um I probably would die, I haven't been feeling all that well as it is, I'm afraid I'm on the verge of a flare, and with finals coming up, let's not tempt fate. But Eric who worked at camp last year, and I had heard many a story about but never met said he'd take mine. I don't know, I don't think I'm much of a party person. Plus there was a very affectionate drunk couple there, and I really didn't need that tonight. Oh, and tomorrow is my last day at the children's hospital. Alex is right, the week before finals really does suck. But In less than 2 weeks I should be a lot happier.

Oh man, but I need to sleep, if I want to not sleep through calc tomorrow, or sleep through the children's hostpital. Maybe tomorrow I can spend some more time with a baby, I love holding the babies, it's so relaxing and wonderful.

So, another uneventful weekend, Alex and I watched Maid in Manhattan, and Everafter, which we realized is the exact same story in different time periods, we also made cookies. During which the oven started smoking, and we opened the windows to let it out. I didn't think about it at the time, but my plant was in front of the window, and so now it's dead a little bit, but most of it is still alive, so that is positive. Good thing plants don't have pain receptors right?

Now, tell me if you can understand this, my parents are out at my sister's campus in CA for her Christmas concert, and yesterday they bought her a bike. When I asked to have my bike here they said no, it would get stolen. But she gets one, when she already has a car, and her campus is probably 1/6 the size of mine. I don't know why this bothers me so much, but I sound very bitter today.

It snowed yesterday, and is continuing to snow today. I guess that's acceptable, considering it is November, I'd just rather have summer all the time. Oh well, can't win them all I guess.

So Yesterday I recieved the sadest letter from one of my campers. She was kind of difficult at camp, she'd have tantrums, or strange outbursts and you could never really tell what was going to set one off. But she sent me a letter in August that I didn't get until almost october, and I hadn't written her back yet, when yesterday I got one that she sent in October, and she told me that her parents had gotten a divorce, and that her best friend didn't want to be her friend any more. So I wrote her back last night, and didn't do any O Chem.

I also did a really good job of procrastinating by working on promoting our health advocate even tonight for 2 hours, and I talked to Chris for an hour, and talked on AIM with Maren and Peter. All good things to accomplish, but I didn't finsh my paper, I ended up with 3 pages, and then found out we didn't need to peer review today anyway. This O Chem test is for sure going to be the one I drop, I still have a chapter and a half to cover before the test friday, and I have no time tonight to do so, because at 7 I have an informational meeting for prospective CA's, and then at 8 is the Sex-ed video festival we health advocates are putting on, so it's a full night.

I've been seriously thinking about being a CA now, I know it's a pretty big time commitment, but if I'm not doing anything else next year, it could be worth it. I do need to find out though, how weekends work, because with a long distance relationship having no weekends off could really suck. I also need to find out when I need to be here for training end of the summer, and see if it would conflict with camp.

Oh thanksgiving. I have yet to start any homework today. We left at 3:30 this morning, and arrived around 8:30. A few wrong turns, but what can you expect. I slept until 1:30 though, which I did not plan on, but I think it was a good thing, becasue I was pretty wiped out. It was a good break, strange as it was.

Thanksgiving day was just my immediate family, sans Laurie of course who was in San Diego having a gourmet meal. Ben and I were assigned to go get the Christmas tree immediatly after lunch was over. That provided minimal difficulty, we had it set up and decorated by late afternoon. The outside Chirstmas lights were already up, the only thing left to go up when I left this morning were the lights on the garland on the railing. My mother has an abundance of Christmas spirit this year.

Friday morning I went to Grand Forks and did some shopping, I didn't even make it to Crhistmas shopping yet, but i did buy a coat that doesn't have holes all over the lining, and I found 2, 100% cashmere sweaters for $35, so that was super exciting. I also got socks that don't have holes in them, and laundry detergent! It was a good trip, even though it was mass chaos. At first it was kind of refreshing how many people were present, because it was starting to freak me out how few people were around, but then I remembered that these people are used to having no one around, and don't know how to drive or walk in traffic. Oh small town Minnesota.

Friday night Chris came and had supper with the family, he brought my parents wine, how cute is that. Then we went to see the movie The fountain in Grand Forks, and both of us still don't get it. He stayed the night, and the next day we went to Stephen to visit some of his relatives. I met most of his grandparents, his grandpa is 90, and still living on his own, it amazes me, for 90 he's doing really well. His other grandparents are younger, and make really good apple pie. Before I had to get home we started waltching Lake Placid, which is a ridiculous movie, I'm not sure if it's supposed to be scary, but it's pretty hilarious.

Alright, I'm done with lunch, time for some homework

Alright, time for a new post, the last one was horribly depressing. So Wednesday was a little stressful after I got the news about Courtney I wen to class, andin History of Medicine discussion found out that my whole paper needed to be re-written by this coming wednesday, so as I left that class i was almost intears because the night I was also supposed to meet Chris' parents, and I didn't even know their names. So I went home and went to bed, because I didn't know what else to do with myself.

I had called Chris earlier in the day to ask him what his parents names were, before he got in the car with them, because then we were kind of past the point of salvation, but was super busy trying to finish his paper. When we got to Applebee's he leans over to me, and wispers them in my ear, and I had to laugh. So I just replaced all of my e's with r's in that previous sentence. Some wierd form of Dyslexia?

Yesterday we went to the Science museum to see Body Worlds (first time for Chris & family, 2nd time for me) and it was fun, but by the time we got done you could tell that everyone was exhausted. But, after a little ado they got me back to campus with the perfect amount of time before Bio colloquim, the last one I might add!
Oh family fun, but don't worry there's plenty to come next week with Thanksgiving, and Chris meeting my family sans Laurie. Joy.

Now to learn some calculus, re-write my paper, and watch a movie with the Alex.

So I just recieved an e-mail from my mom telling me that they had to put my cat Courtney to sleep yesterday. I knew this was coming at some point, I've had her since I was five, but I was just not expecting it at 8:30 this morning, and not by e-mail either. Sad day.

So, it's going to be 70 degrees today! I woke up and the sun was out, an no one as wearing jackets, I didn't even wear a coat. And while I was walking to my calc lecture the whole whashington Ave. bridge smelled like toast, it was pretty sweet, and I didn't even need my mittens. Unfortunately as I was walking to my History of Medicine lecture they were putting up the snow fences on the mall, just to make sure we know the weather is teasing us I think.

It was so hard to stay awake in History of Medicine today, first of all, it's a 10 o'clock class, so I'm not ready to be awake yet, and I've just come from my most thrilling lecture, calculus. Plus the room is so warm all the time, and not so much that it's uncomfortably hot, but just cozily warm, so I sit down and I'm good for 10-20 mins, but then my blood pressure starts coming back down, and I'm gone. And today he showed us slides for a good 10 mins, and turned out the lights, I saw manybe the first 3. Oh well, what are you going to do?

Oh life. So this past weekend, I was in Moorhead. It was a semi-impromptu thing, Chris told me on Monday or Tuesday that Clapp would be going both of the ways I would need to catcha ride up there, and I figured why not, if the opportunity presents itself. So at about 11:30-12ish we left from Minneapolis, and arrived at about 3:30 friday night/saturday morning. So we tried to go to sleep right away when I got there, but fianlly at about 4:30, Chris asks me if i'm asleep and I said no, I'mnot even tired. So we decided maybe watching a movie would help, so we watched cruel intentions, and he fell asleep, and finally I fell asleep around 6:30. It was pretty ridiculous.

Saturdya we didn't do all that much, we watched TV, which was nice, because I almost never do that, and we saw this lady Charla on the ShopNBC chanel, which is where Leah works, she was terrifying. We decided to go out to eat, and after about a half hour of ado, we deicded on Olive Garden, but when we got there it was a 25 mins wait, so we were like hmm, maybe not. And went to Paradiso instead. As we're walking in the door, I seeMarklar and not going to lie, I was fairly surprised, and he says "Are you serious?" and Chris coming inbehind me is rightfully really confused, because why would I know the host at Paradiso in Fargo right. It was a good time. Eventually we ended up renting Everthing is Illuminated, which I really liked, and it made me want to go back to Ukraine.

Sunday Chris had to teach Sunday School, so I had breakfast with Maren, and we took a trip to walmart, where I go the sweetest new watch. It has geckos on it. and a green and yellow gecko chase each other around the face as the second had, plus it has a light. I know, you're jealous.

I got my history of Medicine test back today from 3 weeks ago, and I got an A! it think that's the second A I've gotten on a test since high school. Yey.

So, remmeber when I had foresight, and didn't get my flu shot the day before my calculus midterm? Yeah, neither do I. In retrospect it probably wasn't the best idea to get my flu shot yesterday, but I can comfort myself with the knowledge that I could have possiby prevented my death by preventing my contraction of influenza. And that is more important than a calculus midterm, am I right?

In other news, I'm Moorehead bound soon again, next friday at the latest, and I get to see Maren's play. Woot I'm looking forward to it. I am also looking forward to making corn bake and squash for supper tomorrow. Yey for fall foods that I can eat! (well maybe I shouldn't be eating a ton of the corn bake, but I just don't even care anymore.) I'm going to make this short, like me, and be done writing right now!

Intrapersonal communication, I think this is an important thing to have. I feel like I'm lacking this, this week. Could be par of the reason I've been in such a wierd mood? Who knows. It's probably just me coming off of a weekend with people around the whole weekend and people I wanted to be around the whole weekend at that, and then coming back to my real world this week.

I've been having my usual exciting weekend, doing homework, and going out for a tense evening last night. Supper was enjoyable, I sat by Steve, and he told Jenny and I that the MCAT was an easy test, for which he almost was kicked outside, but we faorgave him. Then we went to the play 'Shadowlands' which was really good, it was emotional, as could be expected since it was about C.S. Lewis and his wife, and we knew how that was going to end. But it was really cool, because a lot of the dialoge betwee characters and the things he said in his speeches were obviously taken from his wirtings. And they incorporated The Magician's nephew into it as well, because Digory picked a magic apple and brought it back to his sick mother to heal her. But the walk there and back was a little bit awkward, and failry tense. Oh well, it was a good evening overall.

Anywho, there is much more calculus and O Chem to be done, so off I go. Oh, and woot for daylight savings time!

So you know those days when you feel like there's a conspiracy against your sanity, if only for the day? I'm having one of those. I woke up this morning and my muscles were not happy, by the time I got out of the shower they were spastic enough that I was like, I can't go to class like this. So I took a motrin and some potassium and magnesium to relax them. that it did indeed. I slept through Calc because I was so dang relaxed. After history of medicine I was going to go to my O Chem professor's office hours told talk about my test, and study habits. It had been more than 15 mins since office hours started and she still hadn't show up, so I left in order to be able to eat something before 4:30 today. I swear she hears I'm coming and deliberatly skips or has a family emergency. Yes I'm failry cynical right now. But seriously, I've gone to office hours 4 times and both times I actually needed to talk to her she hasn't shown up. Then as I was on my way back to my apartment I tried calling my mom because I am going to make squash tonight and need to know how, but our phone was busy. I haven't gottena busy signal in a really long time.

Sorry, that's my whining for the day. I might have something more positive to say after the flu shot clinic tonight. I'm off!